nyslfriends Chapter 52 What Are You Doing?
Chapter 52 What Are You Doing?
Zhao Chen walked up to Xiao Qi, "Xiao Qi." Xiao Qi opened his eyes, buried his head very low, did not dare to raise his head, and hummed softly.
"Why refuse." Zhao Chen said.
Xiao Qi was silent for a few seconds, as if he was suppressing the pain in his body, he said in a deep voice, "I don't want to hurt others..." Zhao Chen frowned, "Xiao Qi, now you are alive more than others. I will find a Those who are willing to marry you, after this matter is over, you can get married."
The water in the wooden bucket rattled a few times, Xiao Qi was dumbfounded, staring at Zhao Chen, his eyes slowly turned red, "Your Majesty, you know that even if Xiao Qi can't survive this time, It is definitely better than hearing these words from His Majesty."
"Don't be willful." It's not that Zhao Chen doesn't know Xiao Qi's heart, but he doesn't dare to face it. He doesn't know how he will go on in the future if he accepts it.When Xiao Qi heard this, tears welled up in his eyes, he lowered his head in panic, and the tears fell into the water, "I am not self-willed, Your Majesty knows it well..."
"I know that doesn't mean it's right!" Zhao Chen inexplicably expressed the boredom in his chest, and he seemed to feel a little agitated as soon as the words came out, so he lowered his voice again, "Xiao Qi, we can't In such a lifetime, you will always have your own home, and your destination should not be me..."
"I don't want to delay others, and I don't want to go against my own heart." Xiao Qi said, "Your Majesty, can't you look at your own heart? Your Majesty's heart really wants to make this little minister Push it far away?"
As if someone had punctured his mind, Xiao Qi remembered, remembered Zhao Chen sinking under his body, and remembered the brief tenderness between them. "Is my heart important? I am the emperor of Huiyang, I can't!"
"For Xiao Qi, this is very important." Xiao Qi smiled wryly, "If His Majesty feels disgusted, Xiao Qi is willing to die to apologize, but he is unwilling to marry others for it."
"I didn't mean that, if you didn't, do you know what is waiting for you?!"
"Your Majesty, you know that even if you are warm with others, the only thing you will call out is His Majesty's name." Xiao Qi said, "Your Majesty is right, you are the emperor of Huiyang. And this subject's arrogance towards the emperor is not enough. Do you really want to tear it apart for others?"
"Xiao Qi, you are forcing me." Zhao Chen said.Xiao Qi twisted his fingers under the water a few times, and said softly, "I don't dare."
"I don't want you to die." Zhao Chen put his hand on the edge of the barrel, he could only see the top of Xiao Qi's hair.Xiao Qi asked, "Why?"
"It's just that, there is no reason." Zhao Chen said.Xiao Qi moved his body, "Then, Your Majesty doesn't need to say more." He slowly sank his head into the bottom of the water along the wall of the barrel, and there was no movement for a long time.Zhao Chen felt that this time was too long, so he said, "Xiao Qi?"
Xiao Qi didn't move.Zhao Chen clenched the side of the bucket, and called out several times, but no one answered. Zhao Chen panicked, reached out to the bottom of the water and pushed Xiao Qi's shoulder, "Xiao Qi!" His voice was trembling. , but Xiao Qi had nothing to do except being pushed by him.
Zhao Chen was on the verge of tears, he ran half a step outside the hall in a panic, and shouted, "Lang—" just as he shouted a word, he was suddenly pulled back.Zhao Chen staggered. He looked at the wet Xiao Qi who came out of the water with red eyes. The water droplets on the man's face were still falling down from the chin, and the eyelashes were bent by the water droplets. Quite a lot.
Zhao Chen's wrist was held in his hand. He knew it was Xiao Qi's tease, so he shook off Xiao Qi's hand angrily, and pushed hard on his shoulder, Xiao Qi bumped into the wall of the barrel unprepared.He looked pained and frowned, as if he was trying his best to suppress his expression.
Zhao Chen was stunned in place, only then did he realize that Xiao Qi was experiencing inhuman pain that Physician Lang had just said.But the grievance and anger in his heart did not subside at all, Zhao Chen said in a cold voice, "Look at your indifferent appearance, I still think you don't know pain."
"It hurts, but being hurt by His Majesty's words hurts even more."
"Xiao Qi, what are you doing?!" Zhao Chen said angrily.Xiao Qi lowered her eyebrows and curled her lips downwards, "Let's just treat it as a humble minister relying on this poison to be willful for once... I just don't want this matter to pile up in His Majesty's heart inexplicably."
"Then what do you want? What do you want me to say?!" Zhao Chen was a little angrily excited, "I won't say anything, let alone give you anything!"
"I don't want anything, I just want His Majesty's heart. Your Majesty doesn't need to give me anything, and I don't need anything."
"Heart." Zhao Chen snorted coldly, "Impossible, Xiao Qi. I am a king, and the king of a country cannot be like this. I am not as good as others, but I also know what a qualified emperor should do and what not to do. What. I put up with you, it's not that I can accept you!" His voice became higher and higher, until he saw Xiao Qi's injured eyes, and finally extinguished the arrogance around him.
Zhao Chen still clinging to the side of the bucket with his hands, he squatted down slowly, leaned his head against the wall of the bucket, and said in a muffled voice, "Xiao Qi... as long as I'm still in power, there will always be a mistake between us... no People will accept our relationship." He seemed to be sobbing, his voice trembling, "I really can't give you what you want...I'm sorry, Xiao Qi, I'm sorry..."
Xiao Qi silently looked at the emptiness in front of him, only those hands were holding onto the side of the bucket, Xiao Qi's eyes were also slightly red, he raised his hand and splashed some water on his face.He stretched out his finger again, and touched the tip of the white jade-like finger on the barrel wall.Zhao Chen's voice slowly disappeared, and his hands, one black and one white, slowly changed from a slight touch to a ten-finger clasp.
Zhao Chen did not refuse, he liked the rough calluses on Xiao Qi's palm, it was the evidence left by the years they spent together, and it was the accumulation of Xiao Qi's ten years of hard work in learning martial arts to protect him.Xiao Qi reached out and rubbed Zhao Chen's hair, just like Zhao Chen did to him before, "It's okay."
Zhao Chen raised his head slightly and saw Xiao Qi protruding on top of his head like a puppy, and said with a smile, "It doesn't matter, Your Majesty, Xiao Qi will always be His Majesty's bodyguard. I will always be behind Your Majesty, Your Majesty takes a step back , I will surely fill His Majesty's arms."
He kissed on the back of Zhao Chen's hand, "Your Majesty has more important responsibilities, Xiao Qi shouldn't be so pushy. I hope His Majesty will forget about everything today, and let Xiao Qi regard it as a sweet dream, okay? From now on, Your Majesty and my ministers will still be just monarchs and ministers."
"..." Zhao Chen bit his lower lip. He opened his eyes and tried hard not to let the tears fall from the corners of his eyes, but it was all in vain. "Let's go, Xiao Qi... I don't want to cause you more pain."
"Why is Your Majesty always self-righteous..." Xiao Qi said, "I never feel pain. Being able to stay by Your Majesty's side for a long time has exhausted Xiao Qi's luck in this life. I don't want to be with you, but to be with you. Your Majesty even like this Are all rights taken away?"
"It's not fair to you." Zhao Chen said, "You deserve better, just let this dream pass, and I'll just wake up from the dream, okay?"
"It's hard for me to obey. I have never thought about fairness or not. If I have to say it, it must be that I have taken advantage of it."
"It's been less than half an hour now." Zhao Chen looked at the sweat on Xiao Qi's forehead, "Three hours, Xiao Qi, how can you bear it?"
"Your Majesty still wants to push this humble minister away." Xiao Qi smiled ugly.Zhao Chen said, "I'm doing it for your own good, that's the best way."
"This humble minister can bear it." Although he said this, with a rather fake smile on his face, his pale lips still revealed his weakness at the moment.Zhao Chen frowned, and said slightly angrily, "You want to kill yourself, and you want to kill me! Is it true that you can stop saying these things only if I come to detoxify you?!"
"Your Majesty, don't make jokes." Xiao Qi's complexion suddenly turned serious, "I dare not insult Your Majesty. Besides, Your Majesty is just talking in anger. I don't want to hear that Your Majesty accepts Xiao Qi for such a ridiculous reason." He shook his head. Shaking his head, "After doing this this time, the relationship between His Majesty and Xiao Qi will be completely broken, I don't want to."
Xiao Qi loosened his hand, and Zhao Chen's fingers were empty. He maintained the posture just now, looked at his empty fingers, and lowered his eyes again, "You could not have suffered like this..."
"I can make it through." Xiao Qi touched the back of Zhao Chen's head, Zhao Chen raised his head, and Xiao Qi said, "Look, Your Majesty, Xiao Qi didn't lie. Can Your Majesty rest assured?"
Zhao Chen stared blankly at the tips of his ears, then chuckled a few times inexplicably, the breath trapped in his chest seemed to be self-contained. "I believe you." He paused for a few seconds before saying, "I'm sorry, Xiao Qi..."
"This sentence should be said by the minister, it is all Xiao Qi's fault."
Zhao Chen stood up, "Doctor Lang will be here today, if you can't make it through, let him tell me." Xiao Qi was taken aback, hiding some disappointment, "Your Majesty is also tired today, it is time to rest as soon as possible. That's right." Zhao Chen hummed lightly, then left the hall and let Doctor Lang go in and guard him.
Although he left the hall, Zhao Chen didn't go to rest either. He sat under the pavilion outside the hall and ordered the little eunuch to fetch some jugs of cold spring wine.He retreated from the crowd, sat alone under the pavilion, looked at the slightly darkening sky, squeezed the body of the pot and poured it into his mouth one mouthful after another.
After an unknown amount of time, there were already two or three empty cans lying on his side beside Zhao Chen, his cheeks were slightly red, and he was already slightly drunk.He raised his hand to remove the bandage wrapped around his neck, and pressed on the wound, with some pits and holes, where Xiao Qi had bitten, and it might be the only entanglement with Xiao Qi in his life.
Zhao Chen suppressed his crying. When he had such a thought, he already understood that his heart had been unconsciously occupied by Xiao Qi. What he said to Xiao Qi that he would detoxify him was not all out of anger. .Zhao Chen wants to see the absurdity to the end, because he understands that Xiao Qi will still fall in love with others in the end, but he thinks that once in a while, they all belong to each other, and only this time, Zhao Chen can cherish it for the rest of his life.
He also wants to show his feelings bravely like Xiao Qi, but he is the emperor, he can't ignore the eyes of the people in the world.Xiao Qi's appearance entered his mind again uncontrollably, Zhao Chen thumped his chest vigorously, sobbing silently.He didn't know what was wrong with him, it seemed that the only way to numb his nerves was to feel the spicy alcohol in his mouth one after another.
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The author has something to say:
Do conflicts come and go quickly?Hahaha, there is a high probability that there will be no quarrels in the future, just wait for Zhao Chen to have the courage to express his feelings~