My reunion with you is a belated confession

Chapter 42 I see your ideal

Not long after He Guoping left, the sky outside had already darkened, and the residents of the community had already turned on their lights, waiting for the storm to come.

The wind was howling, the sky was dark, and from time to time, pea-sized raindrops fell from the sky.The facilities in the community are a bit old, and the windows are very old iron with rust spots on them.

The window was wide open, and He Mingsheng put one hand on the window railing and thought about it. He didn't wake up until the raindrops hit the back of his hand, but he didn't move. The raindrops scattered on it due to the effect of gravity.

I don't know how long it took, but when He Mingsheng turned around, he saw Xingheng behind him.

He Mingsheng paused slightly, not knowing when Xingheng stood behind him.Just as he was about to walk over, he saw Xingheng holding something in his hand, like a piece of paper.

Xingheng raised his hand to give the thing to He Mingsheng, and the latter saw clearly that it was an envelope.Probably because he remembered the letter left by Grandpa Feng in the hospital, He Mingsheng's expression froze for a moment.

"I... I saw you on the phone just now, and I had nothing to do after dinner, so... I went to stay in Grandpa's room for a while, thinking about packing his things." Xing Heng's face was full of grievances. , but seemed to have entered someone else's room at will, a little embarrassed, tried to explain, and the voice became smaller and smaller: "...then I saw this letter."

Indeed, although he stayed at He Mingsheng's house for a long time, unless Grandpa Feng invited him, Xingheng seldom went in. Every time he came in, he always went to He Mingsheng's room habitually.

He Mingsheng put away his emotions, raised his hand to cover Xinghen's hair, and said softly: "It's okay, don't be nervous, I was going to ask you to clean it together."

Hearing this sentence, Xingheng's eyes turned red instantly. This should be the time when He Mingsheng has been the most gentle to him since Grandpa Feng's accident. Although he could feel that He Mingsheng wanted to talk to him as before, but in the end It was the old man who took care of him and passed away. No matter how caring he is, people's emotions cannot be controlled.

Xingheng nodded, and heard He Mingsheng say softly: "Let's watch together."

"Okay." Xingheng's eyes flickered slightly.

At the first sight of the handwriting, Xingheng could be sure that it was written by Grandpa Feng before he fell ill.Turning to look at He Mingsheng, there was no surprise in this man's eyes, but there was only guilt in those usually gentle eyes.

Xiaosheng, hello!

Such a serious opening statement, as if it had been planned for a long time.Xingheng glanced at He Mingsheng, and the man's brows and eyes moved slightly, but he didn't look at him, but only focused on the content of the letter.Xingheng also turned his head and continued to look at the letter.

I don't know when this day will come, but when you read this letter, grandpa will probably be gone, because I don't want to make you sad, and I don't want to say those sad things in front of you, so I will chose this way.We two old men have never been sensational in person, you are not used to it, and so am I, an old man.

When I went to the hospital last time, the doctor told me that my blood pressure was very high, which could easily cause hardening of blood vessel walls and atherosclerosis.I don't know exactly what it is, anyway, it is very likely that I will have a stroke, and I have been very cautious recently, sometimes thinking of me as an old man, just find a nursing home and forget it, but when I think of you and Xiao Xing, definitely won't agree to me, so I just continued to stay there.

I have always known that you have always regarded me as your family, but you are more mature than me, an old man, you keep everything in your heart, you get used to it, and you never express it , but Grandpa, who I am, although you never said it, I always knew it, so after I leave, you must not feel guilty, and you must not feel that my death has anything to do with you.

I have lived my whole life as a person, and I have always done whatever I want, so whatever I do is my own decision, and it has nothing to do with you.

Xiaosheng, I only told you a little about the past between me and your grandfather, but I never told you. I actually miss him very much, but after having you by my side, I feel that this world is like There is also a trace of remembrance.

In this way, you may misunderstand that I raised you only for your grandpa, but grandpa will not hide it from you, it was indeed like this at the beginning.But later, I saw you slowly growing up by my side, and I also developed feelings for you when we got along slowly.

I don't know if the time is too late, people's lives, sometimes they just can't help themselves.But grandpa hopes that what you do in the future will be done after careful consideration, and you will not regret it, so grandpa wants to tell you here that you must do what you like, not because of other irrelevant things Things bind themselves.

Your college entrance examination results are coming out soon, but I know that with your personality, besides staying in this city, your remaining choice will be to take me away.

But this is your grandfather's hometown, I want to stay here.And you are not fit to stay here.

I thought, if I was still alive when you signed up for the college entrance examination, I would definitely make it clear to you that I would not go with you, and you don't have to stay and guard me.But if you haven’t had time to say it, I hope you still have time when you read this letter, to pursue your world and go where you want to go.

When he saw this, the letter paper in He Mingsheng's hand trembled slightly, Xing Heng didn't look at the expression on He Mingsheng's face, his eyes stayed on the letter paper, and he spoke in a voice that the two of them could just hear, slightly hoarse : "Brother, do you want to change your choice?"

After being silent for a while, He Mingsheng let out a long breath, bent one leg, put the hand holding the letter paper on the bent leg, and leaned against the sofa with a sad expression, probably because of the long silence, He Mingsheng wanted to speak When I was listening, I felt some tightness in my throat, and it was a bit painful to pull. I stopped for a moment, coughed lightly, as if my vocal cords were torn apart, and then pulled my throat: "Yes."

Then there was another long silence, until Xingheng was about to get up and turn on the computer, He Mingsheng's voice sounded behind him: "The old man will be strong all his life, if I stay in this city self-righteously, he will probably feel that all these years are useless." feed me."

Hearing the almost joking tone of the person behind him, Xingheng turned around and looked over.The light in the living room shone on He Mingsheng's body, but he couldn't see the expression on He Mingsheng's face at the moment. The whole person seemed to be shrouded in loneliness and solitude.

Xingheng didn't move forward to comfort him, he just stood there and watched for a while before he said, "Brother, let me change your wish."

When He Mingsheng heard these words, his fingers resting on his knees moved slightly, as if acquiescing, but he didn't make a sound.

Xingheng seemed to be sincere, and said: "Brother, I have seen the ideal you put in the dictionary, so I won't report the mistake for you."

He Mingsheng raised his head buried in his chest when he heard these words, and looked at Xing Heng with questioning eyes.

"Brother, I have lived with you for three years, and I have lived with you for half a year. If I don't even know your ideals, then I have failed too much in chasing others."

He Mingsheng didn't speak, but just returned a reassuring look.