The indifferent president's charming husband and wife

Chapter 21 Indecision

The beginning of the year was originally a day for family reunion, but Feng Yuekai became extremely busy. All the big and small family matters weighed heavily on my shoulders. I couldn't say the word of sudden divorce.

If I leave, who will take care of Feng's father? The sister of Feng's family is ready to conceive. Adult Li is not as busy as Feng Yuekai is, and Feng's family has only these two children in Feng's generation. I am worried. I don't know if I should withdraw at this time, I'm afraid that the family will not take care of me and Father Feng will be left out.

Just when I was hesitating, another heavy blow hit me head-on.

The headlines of the entertainment news read: Sexy young models marry into wealthy families, wealthy businessmen abandon male pets and walk into a happy life.

I stared wide-eyed at the TV screen. Not only was there a TV program on the air, but also the sound of firecrackers outside the window. I couldn’t hear what the TV program was saying, but the host’s expression hurt my eyes.

If Feng Yuekai hadn't admitted it publicly, who would have dared to write anything about the Feng family, and the unstoppable tears would fall on the carpet, and the dampness would become a dark spot.

I sat on the sofa, looked at the shoes at the door, imagined my hesitation, my embarrassment, what embarrassment do I have now?Maybe these have become reasons that can't stop me from being firm.

Probably because the heartache is used to it, and there will be no feeling of difficulty breathing. The news is repeatedly broadcast on the screen, covering the screen like a bomb.

I sat on the sofa until dawn, my eyes never shifted from the TV screen, Feng Yuekai didn't come back all night, where would he live, who would he have supper with.

I don't know, and I don't want to know. This kind of feeling that has nothing to do with me is particularly bad. I seem to be a clown, performing a play that is ridiculous in everyone's eyes.

The phone next to me suddenly remembered, I looked down and picked it up with a sneer, "I don't think you did all this just to negotiate a contract with Feng Yuekai"

"Oh, yes, you always imagine the goodness brought to you by others is very evil, and when you discover the advantages of this person, it has become a shadow that you can't catch."

"Zuo Lin, don't think you seem to know me very well"

"Well, it's true that I haven't had much contact with you, but I can't say that I hate you. It's just that you have too many coincidences to be convincing. It's useless to say these things. What do you think now, tell me, divorce? Or should we go on and drive that annoying woman away?"

"Haha, drive away? Then you have a chance, don't you, you fuck me"

"It has a lot to do with me. From the first day I met you, I knew that you are not a good person. Don't always pretend to be arrogant and say some sarcastic remarks. Su Ming, I advise you to be more sensible, even if it is a divorce. , and don’t make it easier for those who hurt you.”

"None of your business"

I hung up the phone, watched the clock turn slowly, and felt as if weeds had grown in my heart. In the morning, even if I didn’t eat, I had to make something for Feng’s father. The sound of keys came from outside the door. Then Feng Yuekai opened the door and entered the room, saw my appearance and didn't speak, then changed his shoes.

I clenched my fists, endured the anger in my heart, and walked into the kitchen. The porridge in the pot kept churning. I looked at the porridge, and suddenly wanted to pour it on Feng Yuekai's face, so that he could taste the pain too.

Feng Yuekai came out of the living room and went into the kitchen, poured a glass of juice from the refrigerator, looked at me a little strangely, and then asked me "didn't sleep all night"

I didn't answer, the spoon in my hand was stirring in the pot, Feng Yuekai continued, "Can you treat me better at home, at least in front of my dad?"

My hand stopped suddenly, then turned off the fire, and served a bowl of porridge. Seeing that I still had no response, Feng Yuekai felt a little irritable and threw it hard. The glass in his hand broke on the ground, which shocked me. The bowl fell to the ground, and the hot porridge spilled all over me.

Feng Yuekai quickly grabbed me and hugged me on the kitchen counter, washed my feet with cold water, and asked me with a frown, "Does it hurt?"

I bit my lip and didn't make a sound. After Feng Yuekai washed it off for me carefully, he asked me, "Do you feel uncomfortable staying with me? You don't even want to see me anymore."

He pinched my chin and asked me "You, don't you love me anymore?"

I laughed, smiled and cried, Feng Yuekai, I fucking care about you so much, I let you hurt again and again, let you play like a fool from the beginning to the end, for your career you can disclose you Already divorced, you can tarnish the most sacred wedding you once thought in front of the world, you can ignore my kindness to you, and everything about me has changed.

I, who used to have my ten fingers not in the sun, now do everything for you, change for you, everything is restrained for you, you say I will sign the contract of sale, you say I will go to bed, you say If you lose your temper, you can do it, and there is nothing else to say.

Even the bowls you broke are countless, and I have experienced two burns alone, but you just asked me cruelly if I don't love you anymore.

I really don't even want to say a single extra word, your domineering has sent me to hell, and I may never come back again "Feng Yuekai, let's get a divorce"

Feng Yuekai looked at me with a frightened expression, and said in disbelief, "You really plan to give up"

I raised my head and looked at Feng Yuekai's clear muzi, "The strong perfume smell on your body really makes me sick"

Feng Yuekai let go of me and walked away from the kitchen with his mouth pursed. He came back within a minute, filled another bowl of porridge, and entered Father Feng's room.

I watched Feng Yuekai come in and out of the kitchen back and forth, but he didn't seem to see me. I was like a transparent object, which didn't exist in his sight.

Even if you explain to me, but you didn't say anything, it hurts me more than slapping my mouth.

I put on my overcoat and walked away under Feng Yuekai's gaze. I didn't take anything. This house doesn't belong to me, and even the clothes don't belong to me. Feng Yuekai bought them for me.

What qualifications do I have to chat with Feng Yuekai? At the very beginning, I came here with nothing. Now that I'm gone, I'm just leaving the house.

I looked at the place on my left hand where I used to wear the ring, and there was a mark that was different from other parts of the skin. This mark seemed to be branded in my heart, lingering, and I couldn't get rid of it.

Feng Yuekai didn't chase after him, but when I looked up at the window, I saw some hurt expressions on his face, so I turned around and left with a smile.

There is no trace of nostalgia.

There are very few contacts on the phone, I don't know where I should go, where is my shelter, the word home is too extravagant for me.

Ever since I sold the old house, I have no home and this haven.

Counting the past days, I got very little.

Holding these pitiful memories, I am finally about to divorce, completely changing from two people to one person, with some liberation, but also some reluctance.

Whatever you care about, you will be troubled by, whatever you expect, you will be burdened by, what you get, you will be subject to, what you covet, you will be subdued by, what you ignore, you will be frustrated by.

I care about Feng Yuekai, but I am trapped by Feng Yuekai. I look forward to the warmth of my home, but I am troubled by the trivial matters at home. When I get love, I am subject to emotions. Feng Yuekai will not be forgotten, so I don't know if I will be frustrated by Feng Yuekai.

Today, I seem to have understood Feng's father's words, but I can't calmly consider the good things between us.

Whether it is a god or a human being, as long as you have feelings, you will probably know the disgusting feeling, the feeling of being completely unaware of the benefits, the feeling of being nauseated even thinking about it, it is very bad.

I touched the mobile phone in my pocket, flipped through the phone book, hesitated for a while before dialing, "Wang Hao, take me in, okay?"

Wang Hao was very quick, and within 10 minutes of calling, he arrived in front of me. I stood up and slammed into his arms fiercely. I was wronged, full of grievances.

Wang Hao patted me on the back, took me into the car, and went to his house.

"Are you alone at home?"

"Yes, my parents don't live with me, and my sister has gone abroad, so I'm the only one here"

I lowered my head, looked at the pair of slippers on my feet, and remained silent.

Wang Hao rubbed my hair, pulled me to sit on the sofa, and asked me softly, "What's wrong?"

As I said that, I cried, feeling that I was really useless, "I don't have the strength to love Feng Yuekai anymore, and I don't have the extra heart to hurt him, Wang Hao, I think it over, I..."

Wang Hao interrupted me and asked, "If you say it, you can't regret it. Are you serious? You really don't love Feng Yuekai, or are you tired and feel that you can't support it? If you still love him and leave, then sooner or later One day, you will regret it so much that you can’t help yourself. Looking at him is a kind of suffering. Letting go is a kind of relief, but the same, if you let go, you can’t turn back.”

I looked at Wang Hao, but I couldn't utter this sentence, yes, I love Feng Yuekai, and I don't want to deny it, but now, do I still love him, and how much.

Wang Hao looked at my hesitation, smiled and rubbed my hair, "Su Ming, if one day you really don't love Feng Yuekai anymore, and you can really leave him to live alone, then you can come to me, I will Waiting for you, waiting for you"

I grabbed my clothes tightly, Wang Hao's words moved me, Wang Hao is different from Feng Yuekai, I have always known that Feng Yuekai is a very indifferent person, he will put down his self-esteem for the purpose, but when he wants to leave you, Heart can kill you.

And Wang Hao is just the opposite, he will give you the best of himself, but he will get stuck, looking at you persistently, torturing your mind.

I lowered my head, not daring to look at him, I was afraid that I would waver in my determination and fall into the abyss, just like Feng Yuekai at that time, captured me in the same way, and then let go.

I don't want to make the same mistake again, so I rejected him bluntly "If I divorce Feng Yuekai, I will marry a woman and live a normal life"

Wang Hao smiled, "Yes, you will have a beautiful wife, give birth to a lovely child, live a life full of diapers and worry about life"

"But, very happy"

"Are you unhappy now?"

"Yes, I'm not doing well. For a year, I've lived like a year. I want a normal life"

"Feng Yuekai will give you a well-fed life and the atmosphere of your home"

"Yes, it can be said that he is missing."

I looked up into Wang Hao's eyes, and said this sentence seriously, "What I need is him, not life, so I don't want to have regrets, so I hesitate, because I have nothing without him. up"

Wang Hao frowned and looked at me, "You're softening your heart"

I stood up and sighed "Where do I live today"

Wang Hao looked at me for a long time before he said, "Let's go, I'll take you to rest"

Following behind Wang Hao, I walked slowly, and suddenly felt something warm dripping from my nose, and when I touched it with my hand, I panicked, "Wang Hao, give me some tissues"

When Wang Hao looked back and saw the blood on my face, he panicked. He hugged me and went into the bathroom to help me clean up the blood on my face.

"What happened, let's go to the hospital"

"It's okay, it's always like this"

"Often? Haven't you been to the hospital?"

"Not yet, Feng Yuekai's father is bedridden at home recently, and I am the only one taking care of him, so I can't get away, so I can only do this first"

Wang Hao was a little angry, but his appearance was still scary. It was the first time I saw him get angry, "Follow me to the hospital tomorrow"

I blankly replied "Okay"

How long has no one cared about me like this, Feng Yuekai, I hope the person in front of me is you, I really hope.