have hidden illness

Chapter 48 You are fine, Gao Xun

It really was a night out of control.

They came back twice after they got home. The first time they didn't even have time to go back to Gao Xun's bedroom, they did it on the door that Kuang Huaiye had knocked loudly.Kuang Huaiye was of course pleasantly surprised by Gao Xun's initiative and cooperation, but when Gao Xun slid his hand down for the third time, he still held him down. Gao Xun's state was not right.

"What's wrong with you?" Kuang Huaiye asked.

"Huh?" Gao Xun looked at him puzzled.

"Why are you working so hard? It's not to complete the work targets."

"...I'm sexually dependent, you forgot." Gao Xun broke away from his hand a little unhappy, and wanted to stretch it down.

"What nonsense, isn't it much better after running?" Kuang Huaiye kept him from moving, stared at him and asked again: "What's wrong with you?"

Gao Xun seemed disappointed and withdrew his hand: "...It's nothing, I don't know when I'll do it next time, so reserve some in advance."

Kuang Huaiye laughed. He didn't expect Gao Xun to say such words. He kissed his brows that were slightly frowned because of his unhappiness: "Your legs can't hold me anymore, so let's do this first. I will Try to find a chance to come back."

Gao Xun folded his arms and said nothing.

"Let's go to bed, okay?" Kuang Huaiye simply skipped the step of discussing with Gao Xun whether he could stay overnight, fearing that the question would lead to another change, so he just naturally held on.

"Not good." Gao Xun looked at the disappointed expression he immediately showed, and couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth: "I'm hungry, you go and get something to eat."

Gao Xun's kitchen, which doesn't fire often, has too few materials to use.

Kuang Huaiye threw something into the pot very impromptuly, and Gao Xun, who was leaning on the kitchen door and supervised the work, was immediately dissatisfied with his clothes torn to pieces and only covered with a blanket, "Hey, don't throw the carrots in."

"...Why do you put things in the refrigerator that you don't eat?" Kuang Huaiye remembered how hard it was to coax him to drink the grated carrots in the porridge last time. There is a box of carrots.

Because I want to see if I can make carrots like your porridge without any carrot taste.

All failed.

But Gao Xun would not tell Kuang Huaiye.

"Anyway, don't throw it in."

"I'll chop it up."

"...That's fine. It's fine if you can't eat it."

He was headstrong with Kuang Huaiye.

He knows it well.

Teacher Gao shouldn't have done this.But Gao Xun wanted to do this.

Because as long as he thinks that maybe there can only be one night between them, he will be like a patient who already knows the date of death, and he can no longer control his desire to indulge.

So whether it's self-willedness, coquettishness, or temper tantrums, Gao Xun wants to do it once.

By the time the two of them had finished eating, packed up and returned to the bed, when Li Kuanghuai was going to the airport at night, it would take less than eight hours.They should fall asleep as soon as possible, but the two of them looked at each other, obviously unwilling to just sleep like this.

Kuang Huaiye touched the quilt covering his body with some excitement, and then patted the pillow under his head: "I finally slept next to you today."

Gao Xun chuckled: "Yes, do you want to pinch your face to see if you are dreaming?"

"Why do you pinch it? You can see for yourself, and I'll know if it's a dream." Kuang Huaiye put his face on his arms and put it in front of Gao Xun.

"Is it a dream?" Gao Xun pecked lightly on his left and right cheeks according to his words.

Kuang Huaiye stopped talking.

"What's wrong? You didn't ask me to kiss?" Gao Xun waved his hand in front of him.

"...I actually feel a little embarrassed..." Kuang Huaiye covered his face, feeling unbelievable that his thick skin, which he thought had always been thick, was becoming thinner.

Now Gao Xun laughed.

He smiled and Kuang Huaiye was even more embarrassed. In order to hide his embarrassment, he picked up Gao Xun's wrist and deliberately asked loudly: "I asked you just now and you haven't answered, why don't you wear the watch I gave you? No Does it look good?"

"Too ostentatious, that watch."

"Where is it ostentatious! Then where did you put it? Where is the love letter? Have you put it away properly?" Kuang Huaiye was very wronged when he thought that the gift he was very satisfied with might be stuffed in some corner by Gao Xun.

Gao Xun tugged at Kuang Huaiye's collar, then lifted his own pillow: "Here. Put it away."

Kuang Huaiye's face turned from cloudy to sunny too quickly, Gao Xun couldn't help but sneered: "Children."

"It's because I like you so much."

So the child and the person whom the child liked so much kissed in the dark a kiss that made both of them blush and heartbeat.

The child does not want to sleep on his own pillow, but insists on squeezing Gao Xun's pillow to be next to him, and obsessively runs his fingers over every part of Gao Xun's facial features. I also like the person in front of me.Acting coquettishly, she asked Gao Xun to reach out and hug him.

Gao Xun glanced at his legs that were exposed outside the quilt due to his height, and quietly moved the quilt down a little.

"My birthday will be in two months." Kuang Huai raised his head and kissed Gao Xun's face in the middle of the night and said, "Can I ask you for a gift?"

Gao Xun hummed.

"Draw me a picture."

"Draw what? Draw you?"

"Draw me."

Gao Xun was silent for a moment and said, "I haven't painted for ten years, so I may not be good at painting."

In fact, his last paintings are all in the sketch book that Kuang Huaiye kept.

"It doesn't matter, you can paint whatever you want. There is only one requirement, to put your signature on the painting, it must not be Xun, but Xun." Kuang Huaiye no longer leaned against his neck, looked straight into Gao Xun's eyes and said.

He didn't ask Gao Xun why he hadn't painted in ten years.

He remembered that Gao Xun once said in a calm tone that his paintings were posted on the school bulletin board by his classmates, he remembered Gao Xun saying that giving up was for persistence, and he remembered Gao Xun’s tears that he heard on the phone on the night of the first day of the new year ...

Did Gao Xun tell his heaviness.

He didn't know what it was, but he knew that Gao Xun didn't want to say it yet.

"Only by signing like that, can your gift be considered qualified."

Gao Xun asked him, "Why?"

"Because this word suits you very well. It suits you best."

As if hearing a bad joke, Gao Xun paused for a few seconds, then brushed his loose hair in front of his forehead, and laughed at himself coldly: "Are you talking about a person who can't control his physical desires and seduces someone who is eight years younger than himself?" Is the person who slept with the student of my student fit this word? Not once, not twice, but until today, until a few hours ago, he was still messing with this student. You should be a teacher, but I have done all the absurd and selfish things. Is this the best match for this word? I don’t think it is suitable for this word, even the word H. At best, it is just a piece of green glass. "

Kuang Huaiye didn't interrupt him, and let him finish every word before he shook the hand that was smoothing his hair, accurately found the beating pulse on the wrist, and took a sip: "No. Yes. I started first, I was childish, awkward, self righteous. Liked you, and didn't figure out the right way to like you like an idiot. If seduce, I seduced you. You didn't do anything wrong, you didn't Hurt me, you've been avoiding hurting me."

The originally cold skin on the inside of Gao Xun's wrist was still attached to his lips, stained with his body temperature. He refused to let Gao Xun move his hand away. He wanted Gao Xun to be able to clearly touch what he said: " You are very good, Gao Xun. Whether as a teacher or as yourself, you are so good that I can't take my eyes off you. You are not flawed, you are the best in my heart and the most cherished."

You are fine, Gao Xun.

Kuang Huaiye said so.

Gao Xun looked at his sleeping face by the moonlight, and wanted to reach out to touch his bushy eyebrows, overly long eyelashes, or his enviable tall nose, but in the end he was still a few centimeters away from them. Still stopped.

He would rather be a stone, because only a stone can remain calm when hearing such words.

But he can't.

The deeper he gets along with Kuang Huaiye, the more he realizes that he needs Kuang Huaiye perhaps far more than Kuang Huaiye needs him.

He didn't quite know when this sense of dependence started to germinate, he carelessly ignored its existence, even though he even shed tears and lost his temper in front of Kuang Huaiye at will.

Now that he has discovered it, he has long missed the best time to cut it off in the soil. It already looks quite decent, and seems to have a tendency to grow taller and taller.

If he didn't like Kuang Huaiye, then Gao Xun might be more selfish, don't think about Kuang Huaiye's future, don't think about who Kuang Huaiye will meet, and don't think about Kuang Huaiye going to fly higher and more The vast sky, but hold him in the palm of your hand, like holding the most beautiful morpho butterfly, and then calmly make a specimen, let him belong to you forever.

But he just likes Kuang Huaiye.

He likes Kuang Huaiye, so he wants to think about Kuang Huaiye's future, the people Kuang Huaiye has not met yet, and the higher and wider sky that Kuang Huaiye should fly to.

So he can only do this, and can only take away such an out-of-control, loving night.

Is this enough?At least he's had a night of real love.

When Kuang Huai was about to leave in the morning, it was raining outside.

Gao Xun wanted to send him off, but Kuang Huaiye didn't want him to rush back and forth on his rare day off, but it was also the time when he couldn't be separated from him, and it might take several months to go out this time I was even more reluctant to come back.After thinking about it, he said, let's accompany him to school for a while.

He had to go to the classroom to get the notes his classmates had prepared for him.

Last night he asked Gao Xun for a gift, and Gao Xun told him later that the classmates in the class have prepared a bunch of review notes for you, according to the date and subject, and they are neatly piled up on your desk It's on.

Kuang Huaiye was taken aback for a moment, and then felt even more regretful that he couldn't throw books and papers on the top floor of the teaching building with the students of Class [-] one week before the college entrance examination.

Coming out of the classroom, the rain not only didn't stop, but also became bigger.

When they came, they were holding an umbrella together. Kuang Huaiye was thinking about how to persuade Gao Xun not to give up the umbrella to him, so Gao Xun took out a folding umbrella from his bag and opened it.

"When did you put it in?" Kuang Huaiye asked.

Gao Xun smiled and said nothing, and handed him the original long-handled umbrella in his hand.

They met for the first time on a rainy day, and now they are separated on a rainy day, so it can be considered that they echo each other from beginning to end.

"I'll borrow you to keep out the rain." Gao Xun said.

It took Kuang Huaiye ten years to return the rain protection tool to him last time, how long will it be this time?Will they meet again?

The taxi was still 200 meters away from them. Kuang Huaiye pushed down the umbrella slightly to the effect that it could just cover the heads of the two people. Then he pulled Gao Xun over and pecked him three times on the lips. like a pact.

"wait me back."

Gao Xun touched his face and said, "Be careful, take care of yourself."

"Yes, yes." Kuang Huaiye pulled his finger down and kissed him.

There was a little sadness in Gao Xun's eyes that Kuang Huaiye couldn't catch in time.