An Xia's paintings

Chapter 36

The next day, after Qin Ruihe sent Lin Anxia to school as usual, he drove to the Zhao brothers' apartment.

Since Zhao Yanghao started working, he bought a house in the city center by himself, enjoying a free single life, without the nagging of the elders in the family, life is really not too comfortable.

After Zhao Yangshu came back, he naturally didn't go back to the old house, but lived with his elder brother in a very appropriate way, which is called "cultivating brotherhood". Restraints, although I am not very happy in my heart, but the children have grown up and have their own opinions, so it is not good to interfere too much.

Because Zhao Yangshu's clinic is still being renovated, he is still an "unemployed youth".

As soon as Qin Rui and Gang entered, they didn't even look at Zhao Yanghao who came forward to greet him, they pushed Zhao Yangshu and went into the study, shutting Zhao Yanghao out of the door!

Zhao Yanghao stared at the brown door panel of his study room, never thought this door panel was so intrusive!He wanted to say the last sentence with backbone, "This is my house! Why don't I let me into the study?!" But thinking of Qin Ruihe's angry face when he entered the door, he immediately stopped his provocative thoughts.

Although it was a bit embarrassing, there was no way to do it, because Zhao Yanghao was afraid of Qin Ruihe since he was a child, for no reason!

The atmosphere in the study was a bit dignified. Qin Ruihe sat on the sofa with his hands clasped against his forehead, without saying a word for a while.Seeing this, Zhao Yangshu sat patiently at the side, picked up a book, and occasionally turned a couple of pages, just to pass the time.

The silence lasted for quite a while, before Qin Ruihe said, "I don't know how to start, I don't even know if it was the right decision to come to you."

Qin Ruihe's voice was still as low as usual, but he lost his calm.

Zhao Yangshu closed the book in his hand and pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose: "Perhaps, you can treat this conversation as an ordinary consultation. An Xia is not that patient, and you are not a family member who is anxious!"

Yes, Zhao Yangshu understands Qin Ruihe's mood very well at this moment. Lin Anxia is the person Qin Ruihe cares about. Qin Ruihe and people like that absolutely do not allow anyone to slander Lin Anxia with harsh words like mental illness. Now, because he was too worried about Lin Anxia's mental state, he had no choice but to take the initiative to consult him, a psychiatrist.To a certain extent, Qin Rui and himself were no longer willing to believe that Lin Anxia was normal.

Reason tells Qin Ruihe that he should help Lin Anxia with psychological treatment early, but emotionally, Qin Ruihe cannot admit that the person he loves is a patient with psychological problems anyway, that is an insult to the person he loves !Although from a scientific point of view, such an idea seems very ridiculous, but feelings have always been ridiculous.

Zhao Yangshu said: "Emotion and reason can never be united. They are like natural opponents. They compete with each other and occasionally win or lose. A smart person often only knows when to let reason win and when to let emotion take the upper hand. !"

Qin Ruihe sighed deeply, and slowly told Zhao Yangshu about Lin Anxia's crazy behavior yesterday, and Zhao Yangshu's face gradually became serious.

"Although, I didn't personally see An Xia's appearance at that time, nor did I communicate with An Xia." Zhao Yangshu said in a slow and low tone: "But if my judgment is correct, An Xia may be Suffering from delusional disorder."

"Delusion?" Qin Ruihe frowned: "What kind of disease is that?"

"Psychosis is the psychological explanation of this symptom. If the condition gets worse..." Zhao Yangshu said with a hint of hesitation: "Then it is very likely that it will evolve into... mental illness. Schizophrenia!"

Qin Ruihe snapped in disbelief: "What?"

Zhao Yangshu frowned: "A Rui, calm down!"

Qin Ruihe tried his best to suppress the anger and panic surging in his heart, his An Xia would never encounter such a terrible thing!How could such a terrible thing happen to Lin Anxia!He is obviously just more sensitive and has a weaker mental capacity!

Zhao Yangshu pursed his lips and said: "In this world, everyone's psychological endurance is mostly determined by their personality, and what can affect a person's personality is mostly the acquired living environment."

"However, there are some people who are naturally more sensitive to emotional perception. In ancient times, such children were called "Zaohui". Most of them don’t live long, and there’s a reason for that.”

Qin Ruihe shouted impatiently: "Don't tell me these twists and turns! Just tell me honestly, what's wrong with An Xia?"

Zhao Yangshu didn't care about Qin Rui and his bad attitude, he continued to explain with a steady voice: "An Xia should be the kind of child who is 'precocious', because he is naturally sensitive to all kinds of emotions, maybe In his childhood, when his mind was not yet sound, he received some stimulation, and these stimulations gradually cast a shadow on his psychology, which caused him to often lose control of his emotions."

Zhao Yangshu said: "I think his emotional instability should have lasted for a very long time. It didn't happen suddenly, but we didn't notice it. An Xia is an artist, and artists are more sensitive than ordinary people, so we usually feel the ups and downs. The emotions that can be felt by them, the perception of these emotions will be magnified countless times in their bodies!"

Qin Ruihe's hands trembled unconsciously, and even his voice lost its calmness in the past: "You, you mean, An Xia once suffered very cruel things, which caused him to... ....." Qin Ruihe couldn't say the words mentally unstable, as if his heart would burst if he said it.

"Not necessarily." Zhao Yangshu explained: "Perhaps those things are not that serious to us, but to An Xia, or An Xia at that age, it is a very serious matter. At that time, his mind was not yet sound, and his ability to perceive emotions was more sensitive than ordinary people. If something painful happened to him in this situation, then the pain would be magnified countless times and directly crush him Not a sound mind. Many people with mental disorders are mostly due to stimulation in childhood, and some people will even be affected by the shadow of childhood for a lifetime."

Zhao Yangshu paused, and couldn't help but patted Qin Rui and his solid back: "I say that, can you understand?"

"An Xia must have been very cute when she was a child."

Zhao Yangshu was confused by Qin Ruihe's inexplicable words.

Qin Ruihe continued: "Such a lovely An Xia should be held in the palm of his hand and loved, who can bear to hurt him?" Finally, Qin Ruihe was so distressed that his voice became hoarse.

As long as he thought of the days when he didn't know Lin Anxia, ​​the young Anxia was hiding alone in a dark corner, weeping secretly, and Qin Ruihe couldn't control the tyranny running around in his heart.

Zhao Yangshu sighed and said: "It was a period of time that none of us could understand. Unless An Xia was willing to take the initiative to tell us, no one knew what he experienced at that time. Even the parties involved in those events at that time , I can't even explain it clearly, because in this world, except for An Xia himself, no one else can experience the same feeling as him..."

Speaking of this, Zhao Yangshu looked at Qin Ruihe habitually, but was shocked by the tears flickering in the corners of Qin Ruihe's eyes, and completely forgot what he was going to say next.

Zhao Yangshu has known Qin Ruihe for 25 years. In the 15 years here, he has never seen Qin Ruihe shed a tear, because Qin Ruihe seems to be insulated from those fragile emotions by nature. He is always so strong, so calm, and so wise , It seems that where he is, it doesn't matter even if the sky falls, because Qin Rui and one person can carry the sky on their shoulders.

But now, this man who is so powerful in Zhao Yangshu's eyes is sitting on a chair and weeping quietly like a wronged child.

"Ah, Ah Rui..."

Qin Ruihe didn't seem to be aware of his gaffe, and he focused all his attention on Lin Anxia, ​​"That's why he's so lonely, because no one has ever understood his world."

Zhao Yangshu said: "No one can fully understand another person's mood, so everyone in this world is unique. Ah Rui, you must be calm, because there is no one else who can understand An Xia except you. Someone to rely on."

That's right, Lin Anxia has lost his father, his only relative in this world, but Anxia needs someone so much that can give him an absolute sense of security.In the past, Qin Ruihe was unwilling to reveal his feelings to Lin Anxia, ​​because he knew that Lin Anxia was not a person who could withstand blows, and he, who had always been cold, would never want to be the one who hurt him, so he chose avoided.

But now, Qin Ruihe has changed his mind. He not only wants Lin Anxia to fully understand his feelings, but also truly loves Lin Anxia for the rest of his life. If one day his heart is out of his control again and he betrays him His original intention also abandoned Lin Anxia's words, so he would choose to kill Lin Anxia and accept the legal punishment himself!

Thinking of this, Qin Ruihe laughed unconsciously. In his 28 years of life, this was the first time he had such a crazy idea like a boy who had just entered puberty.

If he couldn't become the person who made Lin Anxia feel at ease, there would be no one else in this world who could do it.It's not that he is too confident, but that he has begun to understand Lin Anxia. Once Anxia accepts his feelings, but is severely hurt by himself, then he will never open his heart to anything again.

As a result, his An Xia had to continue to torture himself and live in pain in this world.How could he have the heart, how could he have the heart to see Lin Anxia like that?

The author has something to say:

Thank you Mizuno and Mengmeng for the flowers╭(╯3╰)╮

These two chapters are excessive chapters, which may be a bit boring. The author feels that the rhythm of this article is not well grasped. Now it is a bit procrastinating. Try to speed up the progress of the plot. Is taking the plot axis an act of death? ? ? ? (┳＿┳)...