Who wants to become a god? Aren't you all forcing me?

#351 - Chapter 350: The Realm of Conscience

"Li Chenqiu, don't you think a lot of it is fake?" Qi Mingyue's lips curled up slightly: "Isn't it good to stay in eternal bliss? Why move forward?"

Li Chenqiu continued walking forward, without replying.

Qi Mingyue followed behind: "Ever since the North Huang Mountain incident, you've been suspecting Li Qingxia. Why don't you ask? Why don't you test her? Is it that you can't, or you dare not?"

Li Chenqiu's fist slowly clenched, and the gloom gathering between his brows grew heavier.

"I'm not sure if your mother is dead or not, but everything she experienced, everything you experienced, do you think it's fate playing tricks, or a predetermined destiny?"

Qi Mingyue walked to Li Chenqiu's side and placed his hand on the other's shoulder.

Li Chenqiu's almost non-existent body regained color, and the pedestrians on the road jostled him with their shoulders, making each step he took particularly difficult, requiring him to find the right gap to take the next step steadily.

Li Chenqiu coldly replied: "That's why I need to become stronger. Becoming stronger will allow me to see everything clearly."

"Heh heh heh." Qi Mingyue shook his head and sneered: "The appearance of the chameleon has already placed the door to the truth in front of you. Why don't you let King Yama help you investigate?

The reason you give is that you think King Yama wouldn't notice the Seven Forbidden Chameleon, but how do you know if he's noticed the chameleon if you don't ask? You just don't dare!"

*Tap!*

Li Chenqiu stopped and glanced sideways at Qi Mingyue: "How long are you going to keep nagging, you fake thing?"

"Fake?" Qi Mingyue spread his hands, tilted his head, and smiled: "If I'm fake, what are you? Real?"

"Otherwise?"

"It seems you don't understand yourself thoroughly enough. You've been blinded by temporary fulfillment. What a ridiculous and pathetic person!"

As soon as he finished speaking, the scene before Li Chenqiu's eyes suddenly changed.

In the dim room, the air was filled with the smell of alcohol. An old man with flushed cheeks, whose features were unclear, was lying on the bed. Crouching near the head of the bed was a handsome and refined young man.

Li Chenqiu and Qi Mingyue stood aside, quietly watching this scene.

"Familiar?" Qi Mingyue tilted his head and asked.

The sharpness in Li Chenqiu's eyes slightly subsided.

On this day, he killed Wang Zhongshan and Gong Qi on the bridge, rode on Li Qingxia's electric scooter, returned to the fried rice restaurant, helped the drunken Li Ji back to his room, and revealed his inner thoughts.

He wanted to become stronger, strong enough to surpass everyone, surpass the entire Federation!

Qi Mingyue seemed to see through Li Chenqiu's thoughts and smiled: "After Xu Yue left, what supported you to live was revenge. After completing that massacre on the bridge, what did you feel in your heart?"

Li Chenqiu asked back: "What do you think?"

"After leaving that bridge, you were happy and relieved. You even walked a little lighter. But soon, a deep sense of emptiness filled your heart."

Qi Mingyue walked to the bed and sat down, continuing: "The revenge was taken, but the person is still here. You don't know why you're living. On the way back to the store, you even thought about killing Gong Ran and then leaving this world.

But when Li Ji said, 'The three of us will live well,' your thoughts changed. You didn't want to die because you found a reason to live, right?"

Li Chenqiu didn't reply, his features hidden in the shadows.

"The time you obtained Extreme Fire, you had a beautiful dream. In the dream, your mother was still alive. At that time, your belief in living became even stronger, and you became more cautious in your actions, until you met the chameleon.

From him, you caught a glimpse of a corner of the truth. An emotion called 'cowardice' grew in your heart. You knew you should investigate, but your heart was extremely resistant to it.

You were afraid the truth would be cruel. You were afraid that after investigating, you would find that Xu Yue was still dead, that Li Ji and Li Qingxia had deceived you, and that your so-called beliefs were just shaped by others.

You discovered that since Xu Yue left, you have been all alone, walking alone in a fake world, right?"

Li Chenqiu, standing in the shadows, stepped back and leaned against the wall. After a few seconds of silence, he said: "That's nonsense."

Qi Mingyue stood up and walked to Li Chenqiu: "If I'm talking nonsense, then tell me, why did you come to Snow Dusk Mountain?"

"To become stronger, to control my own destiny..."

"No." Qi Mingyue shook his head and interrupted: "If it were the you from before, you would never have done such a reckless thing. Perhaps even you haven't noticed this!"

Qi Mingyue leaned forward slightly, staring intently at Li Chenqiu: "You're running away. You have a slight expectation of death. Riches are found in danger. This is the lie that sensibility tells rationality.

Death, this is what the rational you doesn't want to see, but it's what the emotional you craves. So, you chose a compromise, forced to die in a crisis. Am I right!"

Heavy breathing sounded, followed by Li Chenqiu's denial.

"Wrong, all wrong!"

Li Chenqiu raised his hand and pushed forward, his arm passing straight through Qi Mingyue's body. The excessive force caused him to lose his balance and fall to the ground with a "bang."

"Wrong?" Qi Mingyue walked to Li Chenqiu and squatted down: "I am you, how could I be wrong? These words are hidden in the folds of your heart. Haven't you noticed at all?

Rather than heading towards that uncertain, risky future, it's better to stay here and freeze the beauty forever in this time. What do you think?"

The room fell silent, and no one spoke for a long time.

After an unknown amount of time, Li Chenqiu leaned on the bed and stood up staggeringly.

He chuckled: "I don't think so. You say you are me, can't you feel that I want to go out now?"

Qi Mingyue was slightly stunned, seemingly not expecting the other party to give this answer.

"I admit that you know me better than I know myself in some ways, but you are not me after all. You are just an incomplete existence with a clear purpose."

Li Chenqiu turned around and quietly looked at the other party.

Qi Mingyue's figure and face gradually twisted and changed until he turned into Li Chenqiu's appearance.

"What a ridiculous statement. Since you want to leave, then please tell me, why do you want to leave? Why move forward?"

Li Chenqiu said in a calm tone: "My mother might still be alive. I have to go find her."

"Mom is just an ordinary person. You should know how slim the chances of survival are!"

"I know, but I still have to look for her. What if she's waiting for me? Even if she's dead, I want to find her body and bury her in City 11."

A touch of dimness flashed in the eyes of the false Li Chenqiu: "If everything is fake, can people be real?"