My reunion with you is a belated confession

Chapter 60 Brother Takes You Away

When He Mingsheng received Gao An's call, he had just arrived at the newly arranged place in the hospital.

Sitting by the bed unconsciously in a daze, his mind is full of what happened in the past two days.

Visible changes in stars.

I don't want to pay attention to him anymore, I learned to smoke, and I like to act in the dark, which didn't exist before.

He Mingsheng breathed a sigh of relief, and lay on the bed with his clothes on, feeling unspeakably uncomfortable in his heart. He knew that Xingheng's attitude towards him now was his fault, and he couldn't blame others—no, and it wasn't, at least He Guoping Not innocent.

His Xingzi used to see him all the time, and he liked cleanliness the most. He was never willing to touch cigarettes, and would consciously stay away from people who smoked. Complained to him that a boy in his dormitory smelled of cigarettes every day, which made him very uncomfortable. He also remembered that the man also liked bright lights, as long as the room was dark because of the rainy day, he would want to turn on the lights .

Thinking of He Guoping, He Mingsheng remembered that at the elevator entrance that day, Xingheng had a decisive figure, and he kept his mouth shut when he wanted to explain. He wanted to say that he had never had a girlfriend, and he wanted to say that this It doesn't matter how long it takes for me to chase you, I'm willing to, but there is no chance.

In the past four years, he has been studying hard every day, just to get the title of outstanding graduate, so that no matter where he goes, it will be more or less a bargaining chip.Fortunately, the hard work was not in vain. After finding out that Xingheng had returned to Lancheng, he finished dealing with the school's affairs and rushed back without stopping.

But it seems that it is still too late.

When the mind was chaotic, the ringtone of the mobile phone in his pocket brought back his thoughts.

Seeing Gao An's phone call, He Mingsheng frowned unconsciously, presumably this person wanted to scold him again, after all, when he just came out, Xingheng's rejection was obvious.

Probably because Gao An wanted to tell him not to disturb again, he wanted to hang up directly, but when his hand moved to the screen of the phone, he didn't know what emotion made it so, so he pressed to answer.

"Hey..." He Mingsheng's tone was filled with resistance.

He Mingsheng's words were interrupted, Gao An's voice was full of tension and urgency, and he could not hide his worry: "He Mingsheng, come quickly, brother Xing..."

He Mingsheng automatically ignored the following words, turned over and sat up, Xingheng's voice was full of despair and collapse, and the "brother" sound seemed to strangle He Mingsheng's throat, making him unable to breathe. Even breathing hurts.

He ran to the gate at top speed and took a taxi. He Mingsheng's hurried voice came with a strong order when he got into the car: "Lantian Apartment, hurry up."

Maybe it was because of his bad complexion or the fact that the driver was well-informed, but he didn't say anything and drove quickly.

The scenery outside the car window passed by quickly, and He Mingsheng suddenly remembered that he also went to find Xingheng during the training camp before, but he always went there by bus.Thinking about that time, I was also a despicable person. I knew it was the best choice not to give people hope, but I was greedy for this tenderness, and in the end I hurt the person who was full of himself.

When getting out of the car, there happened to be vehicles coming in and out of the gate, and He Mingsheng rushed in amidst the scolding of the security guard, but turned around and shouted: "Someone will report to you later, I really have something urgent right now, or I can come down later."

The anxiety on He Mingsheng's face was obvious, the security guard waved his hand and said nothing.

Rushing all the way to the door of the unit, He Mingsheng looked at the speed of the elevator descending, and never felt that the time had passed so long, as if people's thoughts are always like this, and they will reflect on what they have done for no reason at a certain moment.

Some people say that when you care about someone, you will feel that the time to see him is extremely slow.According to this inference, he cared about that person very much, but since he cared, why did he hurt him?In the past four years, he didn't dare to think about this matter, He Guoping's warnings and threats were still in his ears, so he didn't dare to be presumptuous again.

Watching the elevator descending slowly, he thought, he would feel that the elevator was so slow even for a few minutes, what about Xingheng, after waiting for him for so many years, did he ever feel desperate and sad?

When the elevator arrived, He Mingsheng walked in, looked at himself reflected in the elevator, and suddenly felt disgusting.He didn't know what happened to Xingheng during the four years he was away, but the bright and sunny boy had indeed disappeared long ago, and he knew it at the first sight after the reunion, no matter what excuses he made for himself, it was useless , he lost the boy he loved.

The ear-piercing "Brother" on the phone seemed to want to pull him into the four years when he was absent.

The moment he opened the door and saw Xingheng, He Mingsheng realized that "pain into the bone marrow" is just an adjective, the pain between people is not connected, no one can clearly feel your sadness, your sadness , your pain is heartbreaking.

Xingheng curled up and huddled in the corner of the sofa, chanting a sentence all the time: brother, I'm not a pervert, I'm not a pervert, brother, please, don't leave me alone, I'm really not a pervert ...

When Gao An saw He Mingsheng, he was about to step forward to explain the situation, but this person walked straight past as if he hadn't seen him at all.

He Mingsheng stopped not far away, looked at Xing Heng's appearance, his throat was congested badly, with faint dryness, he swallowed physiologically.

"Xingzi?" After several preparations, he opened his mouth and called out tentatively. He didn't know what he should say at this moment, and he couldn't think of anything else except the word "Xingheng" when he opened his mouth.

Pressing his throat, he called softly to the person in the corner: "Xingzi, I'm brother." It seemed that only at the beginning could he find his own voice.

"I didn't leave you behind, I just went to do something, Xingzi, let's see if I'm okay?

A slightly trembling voice sounded in the living room, overlapping with Xingheng's voice full of panic and despair, like a sad carol.

As if Xingheng didn't hear it, one hand fell on his lap, and the other finger clasped the edge of the sofa, his voice was crying, as if he kept begging for mercy, and only that sentence was always repeated.

When He Mingsheng approached, Gao An just wanted to say that Xingheng refused to be approached by others, but he stopped when he reached the point of his mouth.Although Xingheng ignored He Mingsheng, he didn't seem to resist his approach.

"Xingzi, brother is back, brother will take you away, Xingzi?" He Mingsheng knelt beside Xingheng, and didn't touch Xingheng, but the gentleness and patience in his voice showed, as if he was afraid of shocking the people around him : "Xingzi, brother will take you away, brother is here to take you away this time, please look up?"

Xingheng has always been in a self-enclosed state, isolating voices outside of itself.

"Xingzi, brother, I beg you, you...you can see if you are okay, brother is wrong..." When He Mingsheng said the latter, the crystals that fell from the corner of his eyes hit the back of Xingheng's hand On the way, the person in his arms stiffened for a moment, stopped the whispering in his mouth, looked up at He Mingsheng, as if it took a lot of effort to see the person in front of him clearly, and whispered timidly: "Brother".

He Mingsheng stretched out his hand, seeing that Xingheng didn't refuse, he grabbed Xingheng's shoulder, hugged him, put Xingheng's chin on his shoulder, and softly comforted him: "Xingzi, it's brother, we are not afraid , Brother is here."

Time passed by every minute and every second, and I felt that the person in my arms gradually relaxed, until I heard the sound of long breathing.

It has been more than an hour since Gao An called him. Xing Heng's obviously excessive emotions made his spirit tense, and he suddenly relaxed and fell asleep soon.

He Mingsheng looked at the person in his arms, took him into his arms with pity and restraint.

When carrying Xing Heng to the room, He Mingsheng said to Gao An who was not far away in a deep voice: "Sit down first, I have something to ask you." It was different from the worry-filled voice before, it was Gao An's familiar alienation.

Gao An nodded, walked over and sat on the sofa.

He has always known that He Mingsheng was willing to talk to him, and was willing to ask him to eat at home in high school, but it was for the sake of Xingheng. Now it seems that this guess is completely correct.Xingheng in high school seemed to have only He Mingsheng left in his life, that's why this person asked him to go home, so that Xingheng would not even forget his only friend.

Looking in the direction of the bedroom and thinking, he knew that Xingheng was in a bad mood for a while in his sophomore year, but now it seems that it is not only caused by the fact that He Mingsheng has a girlfriend, after all, that thing in his sophomore year has passed It's been almost a year, no matter how sad he is, he can somewhat recover from it, and Xingheng's sentence "I'm not a pervert" fully proves this.

So what exactly happened to Zhengheng, the emotions just now were obviously stimulated by something, he felt a little regretful, and often pretended to be a good friend, but he never seemed to really care about it.

"What happened to him hot?"

He Mingsheng's voice interrupted his thoughts, Gao An raised his head, looked in He Mingsheng's direction, and shook his head.

"I don't know." He and Xingheng have known each other for as long as they can remember, but when something like this happened, he didn't even know anything, and he said something like "the second illness is late" when others were struggling late at night. , Guilt and self-blame climbed into my heart.

"We haven't seen each other for four years. I said I wanted to see him, but he always refused me, and we rarely called on the phone. As I told you, most of our communication is text communication. Even He seldom sends voice, he doesn't like to make phone calls."

He Mingsheng was sitting opposite Gao An, with a cigarette in his hand, but he did not light it up, quietly listening to Gao An's narration, with a serious expression as if he was afraid of missing the slightest bit.

The cigarette in his hand has never been lit, he is not keen on smoking, because Xingheng doesn't like it, so he never rests his eyes on the cigarette.