have hidden illness

Chapter 52 Put it in the hands of the person he likes

"At that time, I will trouble you for the confirmation of the volunteers from Class Seven, Director." Gao Xun finished the detailed handover with Director Huang in the office. Tian Tian told her that she would go to support teaching for two years, which made her very angry and worried, and she had to read it over the phone for a long time before she was willing to let him go.

"Don't worry, Xiao Gao! You should pay more attention to your own safety. If you have anything to do or need there, please contact us in time." Director Huang sent Gao Xun to the door and patted him on the shoulder: "Have a good trip."

Gao Xun didn't go home immediately to pack up his things, although he had to gather at the designated place in the city early tomorrow morning.

He walked slowly, following the route he had traveled hundreds of times this year, and walked into the classroom of Class [-] of the third grade.

He stood on the podium and looked at the seats below. Even if there was no one there, he could easily name their owners.

This was the first class he led, although at the beginning it was just that he couldn't escape being forced to take over halfway.

But after returning here, looking at the tables and chairs that were covered with the atmosphere of the end, Gao Xun had to admit that he felt a little sad and regretful in his heart.

He originally wanted to at least accompany them to confirm their willingness before leaving.

It's a pity that the time for the second batch of teachers in the city to go to support education has come, and he will leave tomorrow.

Gao Xun came down from the podium, walked to the last row, turned around a few times, and finally couldn't help but sit down in Kuang Huaiye's seat.

When Kuang Huaiye was at school, he spent most of his time sitting here, lying on the table, sound asleep.

Not long after he transferred, several teachers came to Gao Xun to ask Gao Xun, what does the boy on the far right in the last row look like?I've never seen him lift his head up in class, is he really that sleepy?

Thinking of this, Gao Xun held his chin and smiled lightly.

Yes, why are you so sleepy?Is it because his desk is particularly easy to sleep on?

Gao Xun tilted his hand, and lay down on his desk. The other hand in his pocket rested on the edge of his desk pocket, caressing unconsciously.He was thinking about Kuang Huaiye's weather today, about what time he would send a WeChat message saying that he misses you very much, and his birthday is only a few days away, and he would ask how the painting is...

Suddenly, his caressing fingers paused uncertainly for a moment before repeating what he just touched.

Then he backed away a little, and tilted Kuang Huaiye's table to his side at a 45-degree angle.

There are pieces of Xun characters engraved on it.

It was impossible for him to know when and with what tool Kuang Huaiye carved these words.

To be honest, when he first touched the many sunken marks in his desk, his first reaction was that this guy vandalized public property.But after his fingers slid part of the way along those marks, he had a guess, so he tilted the table over to check.

That's why he saw so many, his character.

The position of these words is very ingenious, if it is not like he is today, sitting in Kuang Huaiye's position and putting his hand into his desk, others will definitely not be able to see them.

What kind of mood did Kuang Huaiye engrave these words?

he does not know……

No, if he really didn't know, he should have stood up and left Kuang Huaiye's seat now, and left the classroom, but in fact he just rested his forehead on Kuang Huaiye's desk and stared blankly at these words.

This is really a child's trick.

This is childish, Gao Xun, you are an adult, and this is very childish.

Gao Xun's reason said calmly in his mind.

It's a pity that the little deer in his heart rushed out again uncontrollably, regardless of its head and tail, stood beside him, kicked its thin legs anxiously and excitedly, and let out a yo-yo cry.

As if asking Gao Xun, hey, can you really not like this person?

Before Gao Xun came to Kuang Huaiye's apartment, he visited his mother first.

To be more specific, he went to his mother's place first and lingered for nearly half an hour. He saw that she was still on with the light on, so he knew that she hadn't slept yet, but he didn't ring the doorbell in the end.

He kissed her quietly, and put some things he bought for her, as well as those in the document bag, the two-year physical examination materials he made an appointment for her last month, and the extra insurance prepared, and put them at her door outside.

She didn't accept that he was, being gay.

She may not have been able to accept him as this.His confessed self was to her both an unforgivable injury and a heinous disobedience.

The moment she turned her head away while lying on the hospital bed, he suddenly realized that she was old.

Old, no longer shiny black hair, slightly drooping mouth, eyes and neck with fine lines.With her back to him, she turned into a small and weak body, completely different from the meticulous and serious look he remembered.

He couldn't hate her, but he didn't know how to get close to her either.

They'd been the closest thing you could think of to each other in the world, they'd been one for almost ten months, hadn't they?

But in fact they were very strange, the moment he left her body was the beginning of their strangeness.

She never really knew him, and neither did he.

He thought, living in this world, they each have their own problems and sufferings... But what makes Gao Xun feel uncomfortable is that from a certain point of view, they are each other's problems and sufferings, which makes They become extremely incomprehensible.

Perhaps the two years he had been away would give them a chance to get to know each other anew.

Of course if not, then he hoped she would at least be in good health.

Gao Xun was woken up by the sound of the phone, opened his eyes for a while before realizing that he was in Kuang Huaiye's apartment, and fell asleep on Kuang Huaiye's bed.

He definitely didn't intend to fall asleep here.

The password of Kuang Huaiye's apartment has not changed, and he came in smoothly. He came to display the painting that was a birthday present for Kuang Huaiye.It's just that when passing by Kuang Huaiye's bedroom, a ghost accidentally walked in.Kuang Huaiye's bed with dark blue sheets and pillows of the same color strongly invited him to lie down and have a try.

The luggage to be brought tomorrow has not been packed yet, so he just needs to lie down and get up...but he just fell asleep like this.

The persistent call brought him back from the momentary annoyance.

"Hey?"

"Hey, it's me."

Hearing Kuang Huaiye's high-pitched voice, he was startled. He immediately sat up and looked around the room. He suspected that Kuang Huaiye had installed a surveillance camera in the room. Otherwise, how could he have caught him calling while he was sleeping on his bed? .

"Are you with me?" Kuang Huaiye asked.

"Well." Sure enough, it was pretending to be a surveillance camera, Gao Xun was silent for a moment and said, "I only slept for a while."

Unexpectedly, Kuang Huaiye was also stunned for a moment, and then said with a disgusted smile: "You fell asleep on my bed?"

"Can't you see it all?" Gao Xun was not very angry with his knowingly asking.

Kuang Huaiye quickly realized: "There is no surveillance in my room. But there is a security system at home. If someone comes in, there will be a reminder on my mobile phone. There was a reminder message just now. I checked the status and it was not a break-in, so Guess it's you who came. But I didn't guess that you came to sleep."

"I'm not, I'm just here to give you a birthday present. I fell asleep accidentally because I was too tired." Hearing his tone, Gao Xun knew that he must be smiling smugly. A few words.

After Kuang Huaiye let out a long ooh, as if he knew that Gao Xun would threaten to hang up the phone, he immediately dismissed it, and changed the subject: "How many days are left, and the painting is finished so soon?"

Not too fast.

If his mother hadn't torn up all the drawings he had made before, he would probably be able to produce dozens of them today.

"Actually, you can just leave it there, and you can give it to me when I come back."

But I'm leaving tomorrow, will you come back tomorrow?

Gao Xun's downcast eyes fell on the half pack of cigarettes he threw on the bedside table. They must have been damp long ago. After all, Kuang Huaiye had been away for so long, and the only night he came back was with him, from school to His family was together... that night that seemed to be stolen, loved each other, no matter how long it took to think about it, it would make my heart beat faster.

"Gao Xun?" Kuang Huaiye lowered his voice, Gao Xun seemed to be able to see his Adam's apple move slightly through the phone, and asked, "Did anything happen to you today?"

For a moment, Gao Xun couldn't figure out what was wrong with betraying him, "Why don't you tell Kuang Huaiye about the teaching support" flashed in his mind: "...it's nothing."

Gao Xun was relieved that Kuang Huaiye didn't ask any further questions.

He knew that Kuang Huaiye didn't fully believe his "nothing happened", but he took care of his unwillingness to say anything more.

Kuang Huaiye was always considerate.

"Hey, Mr. Gao, when I come back, let's go to the beach for one night." He said suddenly.

"Why do you want to go to the beach?"

"Because the sound of the waves is very hypnotic, you will sleep better."

Gao Xun smiled silently: "Just put the working rolling washing machine next to the bed, and the sound is similar to the sound of the waves you want."

"...Can you be more romantic?"

"Then you are more mature, okay?" Gao Xun put down the knee he was holding, and slowly fell down on his bed again: "Children."

"Not good." The child flatly refused.

He should hang up.

He still has a lot of stuff to pack, he's going to assemble in a few hours, he's just here to deliver birthday presents...he shouldn't be here anymore.

But here is Kuang Huaiye's bed, Kuang Huaiye's pillow, and Kuang Huaiye's voice on the phone is so close to him, as long as he closes his eyes, he can easily feel that he is within his reach .He really wanted to touch his eyebrows, his eyes, his nasal bone, his Adam's apple...

"I miss you." Kuang Huaiye said this every day, and after he finished speaking, he would always ask another question: "Do you miss me a little?"

Gao Xun did not answer this question.

He didn't really want to answer today.

But Kuang Huaiye's gray-green eyes hidden under thick eyelashes looked at him intently, disturbed him, and looked forward to him.

"……I miss you."

Not just a little thought.

He backtracked.

When Gao Xun put the book next to the painting, he knew that he, a utterly selfish adult, had clearly made up his mind to be good for the other party, consider the other party's future, and let the other party go to a higher and wider sky .It was obvious that he had made up his mind to indulge his impulse to steal a night of gratification from Kuang Huaiye... In the end, he couldn't match what he really wanted in his heart, and he did something that was contrary to what he promised.

It wasn't Kuang Huaiye's phone call that broke his determination.

It's not Kuang Huaiye's responsibility.

It was when he admitted in front of his mother that he liked this boy that he probably had this contradictory idea.Otherwise, he wouldn't have brought that book with him today, dragged it on his body, and came to Kuang Huaiye's apartment.

Kuang Huaiye once said that he has been thinking about him for ten years. He has a high Xun addiction, and he can't quit it by himself. He has to ask Gao Xun to help him quit. Think about rejecting him, and the more times you are rejected, the better he might be.

But what to do, in the end he found that he didn't want to help Kuang Huai Yejie.

He is greedy.

He wanted Kuang Huaiye to like him.

There will still be various problems between them, and they will also encounter unimaginable difficulties, and even Kuang Huaiye doesn't know everything about him at all...

He thought he had to tell them to Kuang Huaiye, tell him to Kuang Huaiye.

So he kept that book, and he wanted to spread himself completely in front of Kuang Huaiye.

Kuang Huaiye might hate it, maybe he would like it, he wasn't sure, but he wanted to put the choice in Kuang Huaiye's hands.

Put it in the hands of someone he likes.