have hidden illness

Chapter 31 Under the night sky, the moonlight shining high into Kuang Huaiye's eyes

Gao Xun refused and Kuang Huaiye wanted to help him contact the psychiatrist he had seen.

He believed that Kuang Huaiye had good intentions, but he didn't have the confidence to analyze his various growth experiences with a stranger to cooperate with treatment.What's more, he understands that addictive things are not so easy to quit.When he first discovered that he was prone to addiction, he also tried other means, such as cutting some incisions on his inner thighs with a razor blade, in an attempt to curb his dependence on sex.

But apart from feeling pain, there is no other effect.

Even if he was bleeding, he wanted to do it, and ejaculation was the best way to relieve his anxiety and depression.

So later Gao Xun didn't want to resist.

Why resist? First, self-masturbation is better than self-mutilation. Second, anyway, he does not achieve orgasm by frequently changing sexual partners. It is safe and hygienic for him to solve it by himself.And later he also reached a consensus with his body, even if he wanted to do it again, he basically only came once a day. From this perspective, he tried to control himself as much as possible.

Although recently because of Kuang Huaiye's relationship, it seems that [I can have fun by myself] the balance of once a day is a bit broken...

But what they said to each other tonight was already too deep, it was better for him to know the facts, there was no need for Kuang Huaiye to know.

"I want to take medicine and go to bed." Now it's more than half an hour after the meal, Gao Xun rubbed his sore eyes and thought about how to deal with this atmosphere later so that Kuang Huaiye can leave his territory peacefully and amicably. How about going to sleep at home?In other words, he forgot to ask, where did Kuang Huaiye know the address of his home...

Kuang Huaiye went to get the medicine and water, and before giving the water to Gao Xun, he touched it with his lips to check that the temperature was right before handing it over.

"That doctor is very professional, really don't want to go see it?" Kuang Huaiye asked again unwillingly after Gao Xun swallowed the medicine and shrank back into bed.

Gao Xun waved his hand.

"But I think..." Kuang Huaiye wanted to continue, Gao Xun couldn't help but interrupted him with a sigh: "What do you think? Don't think so, if I didn't have this problem, we wouldn't be able to sleep so many times , you can’t have those photos of me in your hand, can you?”

Gao Xun didn't mean to say that.

It's just that Kuang Huaiye's concern and tenderness have deviated too much from their relationship.He had to remind Kuang Huaiye that they were not in a relationship, so don't confuse them, and don't forget how it all started.

"I'm really going to sleep." He couldn't stand beside his bed all night, could he?

Kuang Huaiye really had no such plan.

He sat on the floor and took out his mobile phone: "I wanted to go back and deal with it." Then he opened the hidden album in front of Gao Xun, selected all: "Do you want to confirm the content?"

Kuang Huaiye's tone and expression were very serious, without the slightest hint of a joke.Gao Xun didn't wear glasses, and he could only get a rough idea with a quick glance. It was all about his appearance when he was photographed by Kuang Huaiye before.Just such a glance is enough for him to be ashamed, and he shook his head to confirm what he came for.

"All deleted, you check."

"no need."

"Gao Xun, I want to formally apologize to you again. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have threatened you with such low-handed means. If you don't want to, I won't force you."

"Xiao Xun!" Luo Xuege's stomach was already quite pregnant, and Gao Xun was nervous for her seeing her still walking like flying: "Why is your phone still disconnected on Saturday?"

"The phone is dead and I forgot to charge it. Slow down." Gao Xun let her sit on his seat.

"Your class Kuang Huaiye came to me when I was looking for you that day. I wanted to call you to ask you first, but your mobile phone was not working. I saw that he was very anxious in the message. It was like something big, so I had to go first. I told him. Did he look for you? What's the matter?" Taking advantage of the fact that there are no other teachers in the office yet, and you don't need to pay too much attention to what you say, Teacher Xiao Luo hurried over to gossip.

Gao Xun took a sip of water in a complicated mood.

He said how did Kuang Huaiye know about his house? It turned out that Teammate Zhu was here.

"It's nothing, just a little about the midterm exam results."

"Ah?? Wow, I didn't expect that...he was sleeping all the time in my class. I thought he had a problem with me, but later I heard from other teachers that he seemed to be sleeping every class. I didn't expect that I will also go to the head teacher for the test results... Tsk tsk, it seems that this guy still has a sense of urgency in the third year of high school, and he is finally paying attention!" Luo Xuege sighed and said while nodding.

For a moment, Gao Xun felt that the reason he just prevaricated was very reluctant.

But there is no other way, it’s hard to tell Luo Xuege, oh, he didn’t come to me on Friday night, and he came to collect the debt the next day, but I happened to have a fever.I broke down emotionally in front of him and cried a lot. His conscience realized that he had transformed into a snail girl and took care of me by cooking and feeding medicine. Talk about philosophy of life (not).

"Xiao Xun, is your throat a little hoarse today? Have you caught a cold?" The story of Kuang Huaiye turned to Luo Xuege, and she noticed that Gao Xun's face was paler than usual, and his voice was not quite right.

"I had a fever during weekends, but it's gone today." Gao Xun's physique is not good, and his recovery is twice as slow as others when he gets sick, but he has been educated by his mother since he was a child, and he doesn't go to class for minor illnesses and pains. It is absolutely not allowed.To be honest, if Miss Tianluo didn't take good care of him this time, he would have come to school top-heavy today.

After Kuang Huaiye apologized to him that night, Gao Xun didn't bother at all, and obediently took the door and left.

When Gao Xun woke up, he found the porridge he had left there the day before in the refrigerator. There was a note beside it, which even wrote down how many seconds it would take to heat it in the microwave.

There are also a lot of things in the kitchen that don't belong to Gao Xun, such as the long wooden spoon Kuang Huaiye used, the casserole, and the porridge box in his hand that can be used for heating... It should be taken advantage of him. I went out to buy it during the day while I was asleep.

When it comes to self-care ability, Kuang Huaiye is really much better than him.

Gao Xun thought of him passing by saying that his aunt hadn't left him a meal, and he was so hungry, so he began to learn to get himself something to eat.

This ability to take care of oneself in life was cultivated at that time.

What's more, Huaiye was only so old at that time, and I'm afraid he couldn't even hold the things in the refrigerator that were placed on the upper two floors.His mother had just passed away, his father was not around, and he couldn't speak. He was a good-looking and soft little man, cooking and eating quietly in his own house.

Gao Xun scooped up the warm porridge, and pictured Kuang Huaiye's young figure in his mind, but he didn't dare to turn that figure around, for he was afraid that he would see a pair of gray-green eyes that were empty, only layered. The water mist that does not open.

It had been a long time since he had eaten something that made his stomach feel so tight, he thought, he had to treat Kuang Huaiye better in the future.

This idea made Gao Xun not angry when he arrived at school early this morning and went to the dormitory to get something. When he saw a familiar cigarette butt outside the window sill, Kuang Huaiye probably came here to look for him first on Saturday, but found that he was not there and the window was still locked. Unable to open it, he smoked a cigarette outside depressedly.

It's really daring, and it's not afraid of being caught by the patrolling campus police.

"Xiao Xun, Xiao Xun?" Luo Xuege shook his hand back and forth in front of Gao Xun a few times.

"Huh? I was distracted... What did you just say?"

"Morning, Mr. Gao! Ah, Mr. Luo is so early!"

Luo Xuege originally wanted to ask Gao Xun if his mother had engaged in those blind dates for him recently, but other teachers had already entered the office, so he gave up and went back to the language group after chatting about some irrelevant gossip.

Gao Xun's cell phone vibrated when he was writing a lesson plan on the podium for evening self-study.

[Evening self-study is over, come to the playground. 】

Seeing this thing, Gao Xun raised his eyebrows.

The apology that day will be invalidated so soon?Not only is it invalid, but the more you play, the more you go to the playground to do it?

He only planned to treat Kuang Huaiye better this morning.

"Why so slow." There were only two lights on in the playground, and Kuang Huaiye was the only one on the runway. He threw his school uniform aside and waved to Gao Xun who came over: "Thought you would rest today, no fever anymore? "

"Hmm." Gao Xun looked at Kuang Huaiye stretching his legs, thinking that this is something new, it's going to be a big fight, so warm up before the game?

"You also do some preparatory activities." Kuang Huai said.

After Gao Xun let out a bewildered voice, he didn't continue.

"Don't just do it, at least do some stretching, otherwise you won't be able to hold on later."

Gao Xun was confused when he heard it: "What are you going to do?"

"I'm going to take you for a run."

Gao Xun laughed dumbfounded: "What??"

"I thought about it, it doesn't matter if you don't like to see a psychiatrist. Exercise is a particularly good way to vent. If you can insist on running [-] laps a day, I guess you don't need sex. Your anxiety and depression can be relieved as well. .Or do you want to learn fighting? I can teach you when you get better physically."

Gao Xun almost turned his head and left after hearing this.

What a joke.What is the purpose of running like this every day, to be Kuafu?

Of course, he didn't doubt that insisting on running 8000 laps could curb his sex addiction. After all, after nearly [-] meters, he must not even be able to lift his hands, let alone be able to have fun with himself.

"Run slowly by yourself, I'm going back."

Gao Xun turned around to retreat, but Kuang Huaiye chased after him: "What do you mean I run slowly, who is addicted to us?"

"Based on the frequency of your estrus some time ago, I also doubted which of the two of us is addicted."

Gao Xun walked faster and faster, and was about to step out of the playground, so Kuang Huaiye had to dodge in front of him: "Don't you think this is very passive?" They looked at each other on the runway with only two lights, and Kuang Huaiye With his back to the light, his deep and dark eyes made people search, he said: "Do you want to be threatened by others again, Gao Xun?"

Gao Xun's tone of answer was not serious, but he was imposing: "Do you think everyone else is the same as you?"

But Kuang Huaiye, who has seen too many Gao Xun that others have never seen before, will certainly not be afraid of the indifference he puts on his face.He even took a step forward, took off Gao Xun's glasses and asked with a smile, "What if there is someone as shameless as me? Teacher, what are you going to do?"

It is not advisable to use violence to solve problems.But looking at Kuang Huaiye now, Gao Xun really felt his hands were itchy.

"Let me help you Gao Xun, I can help you."

Under the night sky, the high moonlight shone into Kuang Huaiye's eyes.His devout look made Gao Xun lose his ability to say no.