have hidden illness

Chapter 13 This cliff is her cliff, and this danger is also her danger

On a rare whim, Kuang Huaiye ran to the newly opened commercial complex near his home in the middle of the day looking for a nice restaurant to eat, and within 100 meters of the door, he saw a familiar face in a store next to the atrium.

Standing on the podium in a more upright and dignified manner than usual, Gao Xun sat opposite a young woman with shawl hair, talking with a smile on her face.

Kuang Huaiye turned around, walked into the store and sat down at a table not far from the two people.

"I heard from Aunt Xu that you teach English in Xinghan?"

"Yes."

"The key high school teachers should be very busy, right?"

"Fortunately."

"Kids these days are hard to manage."

"Well, kind of."

Kuang Huaiye's eyelids twitched.

Judging by the posture of this question and answer, are you here for a blind date?

Probably his gaze was too unscrupulous. During the conversation between the two, Gao Xun, who was somewhat absent-minded, seemed to have sensed it, and collided with his gaze in the air.

Gao Xun froze briefly, Kuang Huaiye still looked at him without hiding, Gao Xun immediately nodded at him with his expression unchanged.

His blind date noticed his nodding, and turned sideways to see a tall and handsome boy sitting behind him, who was about to look at them with a smile on his face.This boy was born with a deep outline, and there was a bit of exotic style between his eyebrows and eyes. Although she could guess that he should be a few years younger than her, but being stared at by such an extremely good-looking person for a while, she also felt that A little shyness only in Girls' Generation that I haven't seen for a long time.

"Is it someone you know?" She turned around and asked Gao Xun in a low voice.

"It's a student in the class I lead." Gao Xun did not expect to meet Kuang Huaiye here, but the blind date's attention was obviously distracted by the existence of Kuang Huaiye, so Gao Xun could secretly take a breather .

"Wow, the students taught by the good-looking teachers are all very good-looking."

Gao Xun smiled but said nothing.

The girl was very considerate, and while boasting about Huai Ye, she didn't forget to give him a hand.

After lunch, the girl said she was going to the bathroom. Gao Xun settled the bill and found a remote corner in the atrium to wait. She probably needed to touch up her makeup or something, so he should have time to smoke a cigarette.

In fact, even today, Gao Xun is still not very good at smoking, but he still buys the brand of cigarettes his father used to smoke when he sees them on sale, because there are fewer people smoking this brand now, it is a coincidence Came across a store selling it.

But he doesn't smoke much.

It is often left to stand until I think about it again, and the smoke has already evaporated.

Then he throws it away and buys it again the next time he sees it.

He doesn't attach too much meaning to his behavior, so it doesn't need an explanation.

Just like he sometimes happens to hear street performers playing the guitar and singing the beautiful Solo River outside, and he will stop there to listen quietly, and then put a little money in the guitar case opened by others.

He did this not because of missing tears in his eyes, but in the familiar smell and melody, Gao Xun would occasionally feel his indifferent heart. Life produces some nostalgia with temperature.

Gao Xun knocked on the cigarette case, knocked out a cigarette, held it between his lips, then fumbled for the lighter slowly and looked up at the corner he was in. Not to mention the remoteness and quietness, the wall in front of him, the surrounding It is also surrounded by several giant traveler bananas, which uniquely isolates Gao Xun from other guests who are also resting in the atrium.

It's an excellent place to smoke and daze alone.

Tsk, I don't know if it's out of gas. The lighter that is rarely used can't ignite at this time.

Someone patted him on the shoulder from behind.

Finished makeup so soon?

At the moment when Gao Xun turned around, he tried his best to suppress the irritability in his heart.

After a while, at most one more movie time, this date will be over.

He could see that the girls were being polite to him, which wasn't exactly annoying but ultimately not too satisfying.After today's date is over, as long as he doesn't take the initiative to contact him, or delays to reply a few words coldly when the girl comes to contact him, the other party will naturally understand that there is no need for her to catch up with her if she is a good girl. This perfunctory.

If the result of the failed blind date is fed back to his mother from him, he will face endless questions and troubles, so although Gao Xun feels sorry for the girl for such a reckless and cold treatment, but in his situation, It can only be like this.

However, the person who came was not the girl sitting opposite him just now.

It was Kuang Huaiye, a good-looking student brought out by a good-looking teacher who was praised by girls.

In front of him, Kuang Huaiye lit a cigarette with incomparable proficiency, and the flames from the lighter cast a warm glow on his gray-green eyes in this blue sky and white day.

Indeed, she was extremely good-looking.

Kuang Huaiye raised his eyes, signaling that he would use the cigarette in his mouth to light Gao Xun's.

Gao Xun turned his head and didn't give way. He shrugged and threw the lighter in his hand indifferently, and Gao Xun caught it.

Today is a holiday and this is not school.

At this moment, Gao Xun, who was not in the mood to be a teacher, and his students stood in this corner silently smoking their cigarettes. He didn't speak, and of course Kuang Huaiye didn't. Light cough.

It was just a short time for one cigarette, but it actually gave him a kind of peace and relaxation that stole half a day's leisure.

When the cigarette was exhausted, Gao Xun's anxiety and depression eased a lot.

"Thank you for the lighter."

It's almost time for him to go out.

[Worried about waiting for your blind date? 】

Kuang Huaiye's smile was full of sarcasm.

Gao Xun frowned and quickly glanced at the line, and then smiled, his indifference was indifferent, and there was nothing hidden about it.He thought he was not obligated to explain anything to Kuang Huaiye, even though they had just spent a cigarette time together that he enjoyed very much.

"I go first."

Kuang Huaiye grabbed him from behind.

Every time his hand touched Gao Xun, Gao Xun would think of the kiss he held down in the infirmary again, which was dangerous, fierce, and unreasonable.

But after Gao Xun concentrated on entering the state of defending against the enemy, Kuang Huaiye did not make a move similar to kissing him, but spread out his palm, and slowly wrote on it with his fingers.

The cigarette he bit between his lips accumulated a long section of ash, which fell down in a flutter.

Just like Gao Xun's heart when he saw the line he left in his hand.

[So, does she know that you like men? 】

Back home, Kuang Huaiye was in a bad mood.

This is not because Gao Xun just said "My business has nothing to do with you" and left without changing his face when he was questioned almost provocatively. He thought more, which was unexpected The disappointment with Gao Xun affected his mood.

He obviously likes men, yet he wants to pretend to go on a blind date with women.

This kind of self-deception actually happened to Mr. Gao who stood on the podium and told others to be more frank.

When Kuang Huaiye thought of his cold and pale face again, he just wanted to laugh for a moment.

"How about this time?"

Gao Xunren was still in the entrance, he had only taken off one of his shoes when the fucking call came.

"Fortunately."

"Fortunately, what do you mean? Is the other party satisfied with you? Will it succeed?"

Gao Xun leaned on the shoe cabinet with his eyes closed, listening to her pressing questions, he was sincerely tired, if you are so curious about whether the other party is satisfied with your son, then go ask the other party directly.

But he can't say that.

"Maybe not very satisfied, not very clear."

She would not accept such a vague answer, Gao Xun silently counted the second hand of the clock on the wall, waiting for the next one.

"Why are you not so clear? Don't you know how you get along with others?"

Gao Xun was silent, and she asked again: "What did you do on the date?"

Gao Xun reported to the past, had dinner at the designated place, and then watched a movie together. After watching the movie, he sent the girl home and said goodbye.

The process is smooth and normal, and getting along is not enough.

"Understood. Next, you should take the initiative to ask the other party to meet, get acquainted, and develop well."

"Ok."

There was a pause on the other end, as if to distinguish the authenticity of his obedience.

"Anyway, your recent weekends are all free. If this one doesn't succeed today, there will be other girls to meet next week."

Gao Xun felt stuck in his throat, and after hanging up the phone, he couldn't remember whether he could squeeze out the good words in the end.

There should be some, otherwise how could he hang up the phone?

The next day, the other party asked the introducer's aunt to tactfully convey the information that they felt that the personalities of the two were not suitable.

Gao Xun also immediately received photos and WeChat from his mother of the girl he was going to meet next week.

"Be on time, don't be late."

"..."

"why do not you reply me?"

"Mom, I have a lot of things going on in school recently, can I..."

"Gao Xun."

She called his name in a calm voice, Gao Xun's body sat up straight like a conditioned reflex.

"Mother."

"Mom is helping you make the right choice. Do you still remember what you wrote in the letter of guarantee to your mother?"

"remember."

"Don't let mom down."

Gao Xun knew that it would be difficult for him to fall asleep tonight.

Even if he is willing to play with himself several times in a row, it is difficult to fall asleep.

He was standing on what his mother thought was a cliff, and any gust of passing wind could blow the precarious Gao Xun down into an abyss she couldn't bear. If he fell, she would fall too.

So she tried every means to grab him.

[Gao Xun is going to become the same gay as Shen Xun] is her abyss.

But this cliff is her cliff, and this danger is also her danger.

For Gao Xun, [become a woman who cheated and innocent like his father, marry and have children] is his abyss.

It's not that he doesn't want to empathize with her, but he can't really empathize with her after all.

He is willing not to be the gust of wind that blows her down, to consider her feelings and not directly reveal his true sexuality, but if he wants to ignore the facts and drag innocent girls into his life just to make himself live in the eyes of others Gao Xun cannot live a correct, normal, and safe life, and will never do it.