The indifferent president's charming husband and wife

Chapter 15 Suicide

Feng Yuekai took Pan with him last time.After Bode'an left, he never appeared again. Counting the days, it has been almost half a month. Every day when I go out to buy groceries, I will walk around, even if I see him with other women That's fine, but it just disappeared, without even a shadow to be seen.

Standing on the balcony for a long time, my legs are a little numb, but I just don't want to leave here. This location has a good view, and I can clearly see the vehicles at the entrance of the community.

I sat back on the sofa and touched the scar on my leg subconsciously. Even if the wound healed, the scar would not fade away, just like the knot in our hearts, even if it was untied, I would still take it into consideration .

After checking the time, I put on my coat and went out, ready to go downstairs to buy vegetables.

Although Feng Yuekai is not around, a sum of money will be added to my account regularly. This is my monthly living expenses, and I can't spend much by myself, so I have saved a lot in the past month or so. Plus I still saved a small sum of money from the sale of my home house before I went to work.

Anyway, Feng Yuekai really let go, I still have to live, right?

Smiling, I have already made plans for being lonely and old in the future, and I who give up on myself like this are myself.

Today's onions are very fresh. I remember Feng Yuekai said that the vegetables in the market are relatively fresh, but I still remember that if I go far away, Feng Yuekai will be unhappy.

Now my range is only limited to a range of no more than 300 meters around the community. As soon as he crosses this limit, he will lose his temper. This is the rule I found several times.

Thinking about myself is really sad to the extreme.

"Su Ming?"

Hearing this voice, I tremblingly put down the onion in my hand, and turned around stiffly.

"Wang Hao?"

Wang Hao looked at me with an ugly smile "Yes, it's me"

"Are you all right"

"Why did you ask so?"

I was stunned and looked at him in surprise. Feng Yuekai couldn't let Wang Hao continue, but Wang Hao stood in front of me unscathed and talked to me.

"It's okay, are you free, come to my house and sit down"

"Okay, isn't Feng Yuekai at home?"

I concealed the unnaturalness on my face, and turned to pick onions, "Well, he's not at home, the company is busy, what do you want to eat, I'll make it for you, my craftsmanship is pretty good now"

"Okay, let's eat whatever we want. Do you have any specialty dishes for me to try?"

"certainly"

Wang Hao told me that he went abroad for a while and had a good time to relax and play. The outside world is actually very good, but few people pay attention to it.

I dealt with it in a muffled voice, seeing that he seemed to be in a good mood, and I didn't notice anything wrong. I went upstairs, and he was helping me in the kitchen.

Weeping while cutting onions, the two laughed like children.

"Finally finished cutting, I hate cutting onions the most, wow, my eyes are so hot"

Wang Hao went to the bathroom and took a towel to wipe my eyes, "Don't wipe it with your hands, it will be hotter."

"Ah, I forgot"

"Fool"

I laughed and joked with him. It’s been a long time since no one has talked to me, except for the doorman downstairs, who is the little cashier girl in the supermarket. He always says that I am a good husband and cooks delicious dishes for his wife every day.

And every time I just smiled and didn't answer.

Me and my wife?It would be awkward to think about it, I was transformed from a hedgehog full of thorns into a mouse by Feng Yuekai, which is really ironic when I think about it.

The two steaks and seafood soup were ready soon, and Wang Hao enjoyed the food on the plate.

"Well, I didn't expect the dishes you cooked to be really delicious."

"Of course, it's just that you haven't eaten it."

"Feng Yuekai really has a good taste, I'm envious of others."

I flicked the knife and fork in my hand and continued to cut the steak.

Delicious food?He would only be picky over and over again, without a word of appreciation, or even look at my expression.

"Are you going to just hang around like this?"

"No, I plan to open a restaurant and hand over the family business to Zuo Lin"

I looked at Wang Hao in surprise, not understanding what he did. "Leave it to Zuo Lin? Why?"

"I don't have the courage to take over those companies, and I don't have the confidence to promise anything to my father, so it's better to hand it over to someone who is close to me and let him take care of it. Maybe you haven't noticed that the company I left is now It is thriving day by day, being managed by Zuo Lin very well, I don't know how many times better than me, so I decided to give it a go, but don't worry, I have settled my sister and parents, and I have already made up my mind , now we only owe the east wind.”

"You really think about it, I can't stop you, think it through, don't regret it"

"Well, think about it"

I looked at Wang Hao and didn't continue talking. I didn't know what to say, and I didn't know how to comfort this man with a strong heart.

After a while, I thought about asking him something, but when I said it, I felt a little regretful, "Do you have someone you like?"

Wang Hao picked up his glass and took a sip of the wine, and looked at me with a smile, "I just want to hide this feeling in my heart. I don't know if I will meet someone who makes me fall in love in the future, no matter if he is a woman or a man."

"Well, good luck to you"

"Thanks, you too"

I looked up at him and smiled a little forcedly, "I am very happy. I married a person who loves me and formed a family. Then we will always be together and grow old together. Like those congratulations, I will always love Each other, never apart, until..."

"Su Ming, don't lie to me, okay?"

"You can't lie to my eyes, my eyes see that you are not doing well, very badly, you are not happy, you don't like to laugh anymore, you have lost the spirit and vitality of the past"

"Did Feng Yuekai treat you badly, or did his family treat you badly and put pressure on you?"

"if……."

I couldn't hold back the tears in my eyes anymore, I looked at him and asked, "What if? If I give up, can I go with you? If I say I don't love Feng Yuekai anymore, will you come to pick me up and let me Hurt you all over again? Wang Hao, don't be stupid, I'm not worthy of anyone's love, just like you once said, I'm an amorous person, I can discard anyone's love Love, turn your head and pretend nothing happened, Shi Ran is pregnant with my child, I can watch her go cruelly, but I don’t do anything to stop her, I can watch Li Yan and Jiang Rong step into the The wedding hall, and then forget about it within a week, I can accept your feelings for me and then push you away, even Feng Yuekai, one day I am really tired, maybe I will throw him away, Wang Hao, people like me are not worthy of your love, and I am not worthy of your cherishing at all."

Speaking of the emotional part, I couldn't help shaking my body. Wang Hao looked at me in pain, hugged my shoulder and let me cry and wet his shoulder.

"Su Ming, I know yours, I've always known yours, it's not your fault, it's just someone else's wishful thinking, it has nothing to do with you, I do love you, but you never accepted me, didn't you, you did Li Yan, but you haven't disturbed their life, have you? You are married to Feng Yuekai, but you are still as good as ever. What's wrong with that? It's not your fault."

After a long time, I broke free from his arms and stood motionless by the floor-to-ceiling windows of the balcony, looking at the gate of the community, "I can see Feng Yuekai's car coming home from here, and I can see him coming with a smile on his face. I can cook delicious meals and wait for him to come home, and I can do many things, and do many, many happy things.”

"But I still can't help imagining the appearance of that child who looks the same as me, and my thoughts still can't help betraying Feng Yuekai. What should I do? He will be angry if he knows, stop him if he knows, he will..."

"Su Ming!"

I stared blankly at Wang Hao. Wang Hao held my shoulder tightly and refused to let go. "Su Ming, if you can't stand the pressure, come with me. Leave this place and go abroad with me."

"Where are you going? Let me leave Feng Yuekai, no, I can't leave him"

"It's not that you can't leave him, you can't let go, let go, okay?"

I still shook my head and sat on the sofa refusing to speak. Wang Hao had nothing to do with me. After a long time, he left, and the house was still empty, only the clock was ticking.

Repeating a rhythm, non-stop ringing, I stood up and looked at the greasy plates on the table, and knocked them to the ground vigorously, the scratch on the wall seemed to be scratched on my chest.

Holding a fork and scratching hard on it, I don't want to recall Feng Yuekai's bad treatment to me, I want him to be so good to me forever, and never leave me.

Subconsciously told me that once I left him, I couldn't breathe.

That feeling of suffocation made me panic, and I was afraid of this feeling.

Suddenly, I thought of death, and my mind was so chaotic, it hurt so much that I wanted to die.

I might be free if I die, I stood up and ran to the balcony, looking at the world outside the big French windows, the sky seemed to be isolated from me, the white clouds, the blue sky, but it seemed so far away from me.

Falling from here may be very painful, I should treat myself better, even if I die, I have to die comfortably.

I put on my coat, took my bank card, and went to the bathroom to wash my face before leaving. After making sure that my state would not be discovered by others, I put on my shoes and went out.

Excited because he had found a way to escape, his fingers trembled and he couldn't close the door.

It took a while to close the door, and then leaned on the door to rest for a while before going downstairs.

I withdrew a small amount of money from the bank, but after struggling for a while, I was still a little bit reluctant. Who should I leave so much money to?

Leave it to your own children, so where is the child?What about Shi Ran, did Shi Ran not give birth to him?No, I have to meet Shi Ran.

I took out all the 40 cash in the bank card, and then got into a taxi with some heavy bags.

I went to Shi Ran's hometown, the same remote town as where I used to live.

I was very happy along the way, I felt that my choice was right, and I was excited for my final feeling.

Finally arrived at Shi Ran's house before dark, but there was no Shi Ran at home, only her sister and a bearded man.

"Yo, isn't this Su Ming? Why, come to find my sister. My sister went to find you. A month ago, she left with your evil seed. Why do you still want to have an extramarital affair? You still want to harm my sister. not enough"

I was kicked out of the house by Shi Ran's sister, and I stood at the entrance of the street in a daze. This is a place I am unfamiliar with. There are young people with hair dyed strange colors in every alley. The wolf generally stared at the bag in my hand.

I held my pocket tightly, fearing that they would take away the money I left for the children, but when I reached the second alley, the flickering street lights suddenly went out.

Immediately afterwards, several people tore at each other, and I firmly guarded the bag in my hand. This is my money, and this is the money I gave to my child.

In the future, without my protection, he will definitely suffer hardships. Without his father, he will definitely suffer from cold and starvation. I have to send this money to him so that he can at least live a life without worrying about food and clothing.

The back was sore from being beaten by some people who didn't know what, and suddenly he was hit hard on the head, so he didn't know anything.

When I woke up, it was already bright, and I was still lying in the alley, the morning wind was a little cold, I tried to stand up, tidied my clothes, and then tossed some messy hair to one side, letting myself Looks more energetic.

I touched my pockets, and there was 200 yuan left, which was enough for me to go home. Those people probably just focused on the pockets in my hand and didn't go through the pockets on my body, so I'm not penniless.

I smiled, I really am a useless person, Dad is sorry for you, for not being able to keep the good things that brought you.

I looked at the pharmacy not far away in a daze, and then walked over there step by step. There are surprisingly many pharmacies here. I went door to door and bought a lot of Valium along the way.

Looking at the money left in my hand, I went to the train station again, I bought the nearest ticket, and thought of going home.

Sitting on the train, there are some yellowing leaves floating outside the window. It's autumn, and it's getting cold before I know it.

I don't know if Feng Yuekai will have a good meal after I leave, will he return to our home, will he bring other women to have sex on that bed.

I walked into the toilet on the train, looked out the window, opened the Valium I bought along the way, stuffed slices into my mouth, and took a sip of water, trying to swallow it down.

The train stopped in a short while, I got out of the car in a daze, swayed at the gate of the train station, then gathered myself and stopped a taxi casually.

When I got home, I felt that I couldn't hold on any longer, my nose kept lingering, my head was so confused that it didn't look like my own, and I started to feel dizzy, but I endured it and fell down when I got home.

I tried to take out the key, but the key couldn't be put in. I cried, crying like a child, but I heard a sound from inside the door, and I lay on the door to listen.

In a few seconds, the door was opened, and I was thrown aside with no strength in my body.

Who do I see?I saw no one.

The world doesn't want me anymore, doesn't want me anymore...

I seem to hear someone calling me, but I can't open my eyes, I don't know who it is until I completely lose consciousness.

"Su Ming... Su Ming!"